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Originally Posted by baxibermuda 
Hello and good morning I have just celebrated 2 years of sobriety and would like to thank all for the help and support my life is in a much better place and I can think straighter I have not lost my self respect in 2 years now and as previous posts have said I am fit fresh and free.
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I just read this thread from the beginning and I gotta say, it was a nail biter!
I am a sucker for a happy ending and you brought it, Baxi!
Congratulations on staying sober throughout your trials
I am a sucker for a happy ending and you brought it, Baxi!
Congratulations on staying sober throughout your trials
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Hi all still here and sober.Like my AA i am more a watcher and listener than a talker but enjoy reading the posts. I enjoy the gifts of sobriety and an appreciate that i now have answers to live with my thinking.My freedom lies in the acceptance of my powerlessness over alcohol and the shattering of the delusion that i will ever be able to drink in safety or moderation.
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Just read it all... i am in the low place after a disaster... still got job, house and maybe still a husband....but for how long. You reaffirm my commitment a d hope that this time it sticks. Thanks your for keeping sober x
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Many, many good thoughts and observations of what you're telling us in all of the above.
To the last point- it is always said in AA, sometimes in a meeting prayer, that we pray for the alcoholic who still suffers. That is you, and it means that we pray that you will find what we have. Simple as that. And you can.
You mention so many things that are actually WRONG with your life as you go from your original post on through - you get past the "trappings" of awesome to...gambling, cheating on your wife, and more.
You can shed all of this if you stay sober. You will gain more and more control over your choices if you stay sober. I hope that you will work a program like you are tiptoing toward doing. A plan and a program are crucial- sobriety (in AA or other) is a course of ACTION.
Good luck.
To the last point- it is always said in AA, sometimes in a meeting prayer, that we pray for the alcoholic who still suffers. That is you, and it means that we pray that you will find what we have. Simple as that. And you can.
You mention so many things that are actually WRONG with your life as you go from your original post on through - you get past the "trappings" of awesome to...gambling, cheating on your wife, and more.
You can shed all of this if you stay sober. You will gain more and more control over your choices if you stay sober. I hope that you will work a program like you are tiptoing toward doing. A plan and a program are crucial- sobriety (in AA or other) is a course of ACTION.
Good luck.
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Originally Posted by baxibermuda
The best way for me to show my gratitude for the changes in my life is to go to a aa meeting and be willing to help others.
so apparently ya got over that "tribalism" thing?
care to share how that happened?
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Hi tomsteve the changed occurred when I stopped critiscing others and looking only at me a realised that aa was not going to change and that I had to change. I had to develop my own experiences and to live and let live. I spoke honestly and shared honestly with others. I learnt that my sense of discontentment is internal and not external. And finally for now I stopped fighting and looking fo a way out and stared accepting and realising and experiencing the freedom there is in accepting my powerlessness.
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Hi Baxi .
Well done on 3 years its good to see you post , the last time we met each other in Glasgow Scotland you were going off on holiday . Myself and some other guys have started a CA 12 Step discussion meeting on a Sunday evening (I am just in ) there are about 3 AAers dual addicted and couple of others in the group . We meet at St Serfs Episcopalian Church on the opposite side of Shettleson Rd from the Kirkhouse every Sunday at 8pm till 9.30 , it would be good to have a catch up .
Regards Stevie recovered 12 03 2006
Well done on 3 years its good to see you post , the last time we met each other in Glasgow Scotland you were going off on holiday . Myself and some other guys have started a CA 12 Step discussion meeting on a Sunday evening (I am just in ) there are about 3 AAers dual addicted and couple of others in the group . We meet at St Serfs Episcopalian Church on the opposite side of Shettleson Rd from the Kirkhouse every Sunday at 8pm till 9.30 , it would be good to have a catch up .
Regards Stevie recovered 12 03 2006
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Hi All I am celebrating 4 years sober today and want to thank you all for your continued posts and support I find via this forum. As I said before I am more of a reader than a poster but would encourage everybody to stay sober identify your own recovery goals and work towards these.I feel so much more content with myself and enjoy the freedom that sober living affords me I have just returned from two weeks holiday in Bulgaria and it was great to be on the beach at 6 am daily with a bottle of water, peace of mind , self respect and gratitude than to sit there alcohol in hand feeling self hatred , defeated and suffering the internal spiritual hangover. Wishing you all a good day
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