Claythescribe and Mumbles -- Chat last night

[baretree]

Thanks for being there in chat last night. For others, after 24 years of sobriety, I started drinking last Monday and need some people to talk too, to explore why. I've got 4 beers and 5-6 shots of schnapps...then no more.

[Dee74]

Welcome to the forum part of SR Baretree.

Please think about dumping what you have there - as one who's been there, I think it's never too soon to start stopping, if you get me

and pls, see a Dr about detox.

D

[baretree]

Dee...I'm reaching out here...which is incredibly hard for me. I'll be honest...I'm finishing what I got.

As 1 of the millions without insurance a doctor is out of the question. I couldn't even get a tetnus shot when I needed one without going to emergency room. Which I wouldn't do.

I did go thru a hospital detox 24 yrs ago and had some withdrawal symptons, but I would think detox would not be necesary after a week of drinking...Am I wrong?

[Wolfchild]

[thirtybubba]

Baretree, welcome.


A week, maybe, maybe not. I've been through a few, some scary, some not.

No way to tell. I mean, beforehand.

& I know about no insurance... right there with you buddy.
Just, if anything seems amiss, call 911, or go to the ER. Don't bring your ID. I didn't just say that...

And come back to us, either posting or in the chat rooms. There is plenty of support here on SR.

[caleb76]

Originally Posted by baretree

Thanks for being there in chat last night. For others, after 24 years of sobriety, I started drinking last Monday and need some people to talk too, to explore why. I've got 4 beers and 5-6 shots of schnapps...then no more.

I don't know what detox would be like for you after one week. You had a long run without alcohol. The sooner you stop the easier it will be. You may not be in the habit of drinking everyday yet. It will be easier to stop now rather than later. I hope the best for you. It sure would be sad to go back to where you were after such a long run of sobriety.

Thanks for sharing.

[CarolD]

Glad yoou found our Chat ...like these Forums
it's open 24/7.

Welcome to our SR Alcoholism Forum...

The Salvation Army runs free short term de tox
centers in many areas.

[baretree]

{ This won't make sense probably without some explanation, but this is log i kept of last week...bet this won't post without some censoring }



I'm in a crisis.
I'm in a crisis.

Tuesday 10/26 7:53 pm.

Monday-- noonish bottle of Cin schnapps finished 6:00 p.m TUES or so...drunk...why do people do this.

Bottle 2 7:45

I want people to know I'm in crisis without me telling them. The only one who would know is mom.

Quit nicotine ahhhh.... told Angel I wanted to drink...i'm in crisis.

Feelings for Maya are ******....

Why can't I drink?????

There's a song in here somewhere. 10/28 1:28

Am I freaking people out? Yes

Googling blum I'm ******...serious crisis

unrequited love...story of my life


Denise...”How is your pilot?” **** **** ****

10/29 9:09 p.m.

Previous disappeeared real fast but same reaction....**** **** ****

I need to write my feelings and it almost feels more honest after drinking...

Why does it feel normal to do things on facebook i.e. Cigars for all, but it seems awkward when I think about doing it sober?

Grand experiement....conclusion....I need help...Definitely can not drink. But drinking helps on the social aspects...what to do. I'd be dead if I drank all these years.

Drinking...I get to the point of where it feels good, but I ABSOLUTELY know that I can not keep it up.

Do people drink and feel like this and not feel ****** up???? time stamp 11:07 10/29

Stream od consciensness wow...time stamp 11:07 10/29

When is good time to get drunk? Never always wow.

All these routine things like taking a leak while drunk...seem very familiar....
Facebook with family while drinking seems fun yet tragic....can not do it... didn'y have facebook 20 years ago.

I'm ****** and love this feeling and hate this feeling. Definitely 95% buzzed. Definitely 99.9 % buzzed,,, If I Could have 1000 years. 3 or 4 hours late...wtf...

Totally ****** 12:15 10/30 Prev sentence doesen't make sense


Could I possibly approach Maya without totally freaking her out 10/30 1:28...not to be with her but to understand me...

Facebook reaches the world,,,how cool is that...after getting a heart from Israeli Lena


****, ****, ****...time stamp 11/1/09 2:00 time change...wow

bought 12 pack and bottle of schnapps...yesterday...4th bottle of schnapps...2/3 bot schnapps left...@ 5 beers left

this is not fun........I feel like i'm screaming I got a problem....but no one recognizes it. Ie fb except 1 possibly 2 random strangers...just signed up to get account on sober recoverysomething or another


Claythescribe and mumbles

[baretree]

I see I scared everybody away.

[CarolD]

baretree....the Forums are not like Chat.
Think of them as bulltin boards

you share ...others come back to read and reply.

Chat is more like live conversations.

Your correct our auto censor kicked in.

[Gypsy Feet]

hi bt, and welcome. I am sorry you are hurting and scared. I was there more than once.

[caleb76]

Originally Posted by baretree

I see I scared everybody away.

I don't think anyone was scared away. We just didn't know how to respond to that.

[baretree]

23 years, 11 months, 2 days sober, 7 days drunk, 1 day sober.

The thought never crossed my mind that I'd be participating in Alcoholism forum when I picked up that drink Last Monday. Last time I drank there was not this tool to help. wow!!!

Woke up this morning shaking and anxious, but determined.

[baretree]

Maybe this would be better in blog than forum...still finding stuff on this sight

[smacked]

Just go to "Blogs" then "your blog" and you can post away