People drinking in front of me

[LBW]

Eastcoaster,

Three years ago I was in miserable state. I had spent 5 years drinking uncontrollably after work nearly every day. I drank alone. I lived in shame and guilt. I can relate to alot of people's posts because of this period of my life. I had lost control and I felt hopeless.

How I actually ended that low period was by getting pregnant. I quit drinking cold turkey. After my son was born, I made many very positive changes in my life. I managed to keep my drinking to only 1 day a week. It was no solution though... I was still an alcoholic.

At this point here in my second pregnancy, I have finally had the epiphany that the only way to deal with this problem is not to ever drink again. The sobriety of pregnancy has given me a little more perspective, which is a BIG advantage. Limiting the drinking over the last 3 years is also an advantage. I think my mind is in a better place to think about all these things than it would have been if I had tried to do this during the very active alcoholic phase of my life.

I just don't want to blow this opportunity. This is my big chance. Of all the things I have ever achieved in my life, this will be the most important. Alcoholism ruins lives and not just the person who drinks either. I have seen that first hand because of my father. My children deserve better than that. I deserve better.

[Payton]

I relate to this so much, I really respect what you're saying, and hope to follow in your footsteps.

[anono]

Originally Posted by LBW
I would have pounded beers and thought everyone else was just as into drinking as me. I wouldn't have eaten all the food I spent the day preparing because I would be drinking. I would have continued drinking after everyone else stopped. I would have said stupid things I would later regret. My husband would tell me the next day how bad I was slurring. I would have continued drinking after everyone had left. I don't know how late I would have stayed up because I would eventually blackout. I would have eaten in this drunken state and got food everywhere, probably left food out that should have been in the fridge. I might have drunk emailed or something. I wouldn't have cleaned up after the party... it would have been a mess. I would have a terrible hangover the entire next day -- throwing up all day long. The mess would continue to get worse. My son would be ignored. I would hate myself

change beer to wine and there's me!

And recognizing that we're not really normal is a giant leap foward.

i thought we were the normal ones LOL


terrific posts! thank you

[JohnnyZ]

I didn't want to start a new thread so this one is about the closest topic for my comment.

This weekend I went to a wedding reception. Now, I haven't drank in roughly 3.5 months. I'm committed to never drinking again; I don't miss it; and, it doesn't bother me at all to be around alcohol or people who are drinking it. So, come time for the champagne toast and I recall reading someone's experience on this forum about taking a sip of a champagne toast which restarted years of drinking after over a decade of sobriety. Not that I was tempted or even considered drinking even a sip, but I just thought it was great to take something from this forum and remember it. Thank you soberrecovery.com! :-)

[Lily]

Remember the not drinking thing isn't forever and ever and the rest of your life, you are only not drinking just for today. Blessings! Sheila