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Butterfly · 10-20-2009, 12:47 PM

Hi Folks,

Well, I've decided to retire my number. I've invested far too much of my time and life in beer and have come to realize it's a mirage. I had quit for a year to prove that I could do it, had asked My Higher Power to take away the urge and miraculously... it was taken away. During this year I would laugh at the thought that I had no urge to drink. It was crazy because that urge always sprang up as the sun fell down... But that urge was gone and I felt great, and free.
So I did the year and on Day 386 I believe it was, I decided to have a couple knowing that I wouldn't go back to drinking like I used to. Well, that was over seven months ago... I've gone a few to several days without drinking here and there, and there have been evenings where I did just have two or three, but honestly drinking has become unmanageable once again and so I am removing it from my equation. If you disengage, every battle's won... and so I disengage from alcohol and once again ask God to take away the urge.

Thank-you for listening Everbody. I just wanted to get honest and share with you all on this, my Day 1 of sobriety.

A wonderful and sober day to all of you,

Butterfly

Sikkisirus · 10-20-2009, 01:11 PM

Welcome to SR Butterfly, you'll find lots of support here

es0919 · 10-20-2009, 01:17 PM

Thanks for sharing, just take it one day at a time!

***Astro*** · 10-20-2009, 01:24 PM

Butterfly, your join date says Nov. 2007, so I'm guessing you've been here before. Please stay as long as you can.

I had "brown bottle flu" for so many years, it's frightening how quickly it progressed. Then I switched to vodka, scotch, bourbon, anything to fill the emptiness. Nothing did the trick for very long.

I really admire your honesty, welcome back to sobriety.

Butterfly · 10-20-2009, 02:08 PM

Thank-you Sikkisirus, es0919 and Astro for welcoming me and for your support. Yes, I'd joined here in November of 2007 before my 386 day quit began in February of 2008. I look forward to staying here and learning from you all. A quote that has really helped me and has become a mantra for me is from Kris Kristofferson regarding choosing sobriety:

"But at some point I decided that if it was important enough to me to keep doing it as Art, I should do it with all my tools."

He has a wonderful song called "Chase The Feeling" which I think will ring true with anyone in recovery and/or struggling with addiction.

Thanks again,

Butterfly

Nevertheless · 10-20-2009, 02:20 PM

I quit about ten years ago when I found out I had high bloodpressure. I was going to eat right and exercise and all that.
Well after a month I told myself it was OK as long as I wen't for a bike ride before hand. This wen't pretty good at first. I would ride 12 miles and drink a six pack once a week. I started this in the spring, and by the end of summer I was riding my bike maybe 5 nights a week.(Man I was in good shape).
Winter came on and the bike rides got less and less, and beer got more and more.
I really thought after that first month that I could control it, and I did for a while. But somewhere in not too long a time, I forgot about it. Or made myself forget about it.
Glad you are giving it up. Keep coming back.
Fred

Butterfly · 10-20-2009, 05:31 PM

Thanks for sharing your story Fred. I appreciate it. Twelve miles a day, five days a week, you must've been in some kind of shape!
Yes, I sure can identify with the forgetting somewhere along the line... It always creeps back out of control for me. As many say,"Not as bad as some, but worse than others..." but I know it's a progressive disease and I don't want to go any farther down the path.

Thank-you for your support!

Butterfly

**CarolD** · 10-20-2009, 05:45 PM

Glad to see you here sharing with us
Welcome to our SR Alcoholism Forum...

Butterfly · 10-20-2009, 07:15 PM

Thank-you so much Carol. I'm glad you are all here!

mirage · 10-20-2009, 09:09 PM

Did I hear you say "mirage"? haha. Glad you're here, butterfly. This is such a great place for support...such great folks here. I'm pretty new, but I've gotten a lot from SR already. Best of luck to you!

least · 10-21-2009, 06:56 AM

Welcome back to SR and sobriety!

TheMaster · 10-21-2009, 09:46 AM

I'm a little over a week now, myself...

Butterfly · 10-21-2009, 12:42 PM

Thank-you for your support Mirage. I think I understand your name! LOL!
Thank-you Least. It feels good to be back!
Nice to meet you TheMaster. Congratulations on your week!

me11109 · 10-21-2009, 01:12 PM

Welcome back Butterfly. Yes, those little mind games we play, those sweet whispers of "I can drink like a normy". I must work at it every day. Glad you are here.

Wolfchild · 10-21-2009, 02:39 PM

Butterfly · 10-21-2009, 03:21 PM

Thank-you me11109. Yes, those "sweet little whispers" never remind me how I'll feel in the morning either!

Thank-you for the welcome Wolfchild. I really like your signature quote!

10-20-2009, 12:47 PM	#1 (permalink)
Butterfly Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Van Nuys, CA Posts: 12	A New Beginning Hi Folks, Well, I've decided to retire my number. I've invested far too much of my time and life in beer and have come to realize it's a mirage. I had quit for a year to prove that I could do it, had asked My Higher Power to take away the urge and miraculously... it was taken away. During this year I would laugh at the thought that I had no urge to drink. It was crazy because that urge always sprang up as the sun fell down... But that urge was gone and I felt great, and free. So I did the year and on Day 386 I believe it was, I decided to have a couple knowing that I wouldn't go back to drinking like I used to. Well, that was over seven months ago... I've gone a few to several days without drinking here and there, and there have been evenings where I did just have two or three, but honestly drinking has become unmanageable once again and so I am removing it from my equation. If you disengage, every battle's won... and so I disengage from alcohol and once again ask God to take away the urge. Thank-you for listening Everbody. I just wanted to get honest and share with you all on this, my Day 1 of sobriety. A wonderful and sober day to all of you, Butterfly

10-20-2009, 01:11 PM	#2 (permalink)
Sikkisirus Rockstar Classic Frogger Champion! Join Date: Jul 2009 Location: Wales, UK Posts: 518	Welcome to SR Butterfly, you'll find lots of support here __________________ Standing in a church makes you no more of a Christian than standing in a garage makes you a car. The past is a strange place. They do things differently there.

10-20-2009, 01:24 PM	#4 (permalink)
*Astro* Humble Door Greeter Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Scottsdale, AZ, two families in a big new home! Posts: 9,283	Butterfly, your join date says Nov. 2007, so I'm guessing you've been here before. Please stay as long as you can. I had "brown bottle flu" for so many years, it's frightening how quickly it progressed. Then I switched to vodka, scotch, bourbon, anything to fill the emptiness. Nothing did the trick for very long. I really admire your honesty, welcome back to sobriety. __________________ "Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty, and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming---WOW-What a ride!"

10-20-2009, 05:45 PM	#8 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 21,881	Glad to see you here sharing with us Welcome to our SR Alcoholism Forum... __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! :

10-21-2009, 06:56 AM	#11 (permalink)
least recovering Join Date: Mar 2008 Location: eastern USA Posts: 9,941 Blog Entries: 14	Welcome back to SR and sobriety! __________________ I'd rather live in my van with my dogs than live in a mansion without them. Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole. Plus que je connais les hommes, plus j'aime mon chien. (The more I know mankind, the more I love my dog)

10-20-2009, 01:17 PM	#3 (permalink)
es0919 Member Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: Costa Mesa, CA Posts: 27	Thanks for sharing, just take it one day at a time!

10-20-2009, 02:08 PM	#5 (permalink)
Butterfly Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Van Nuys, CA Posts: 12	Thank-you Sikkisirus, es0919 and Astro for welcoming me and for your support. Yes, I'd joined here in November of 2007 before my 386 day quit began in February of 2008. I look forward to staying here and learning from you all. A quote that has really helped me and has become a mantra for me is from Kris Kristofferson regarding choosing sobriety: "But at some point I decided that if it was important enough to me to keep doing it as Art, I should do it with all my tools." He has a wonderful song called "Chase The Feeling" which I think will ring true with anyone in recovery and/or struggling with addiction. Thanks again, Butterfly

10-20-2009, 02:20 PM	#6 (permalink)
Nevertheless Member Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: KC MO Posts: 165	I quit about ten years ago when I found out I had high bloodpressure. I was going to eat right and exercise and all that. Well after a month I told myself it was OK as long as I wen't for a bike ride before hand. This wen't pretty good at first. I would ride 12 miles and drink a six pack once a week. I started this in the spring, and by the end of summer I was riding my bike maybe 5 nights a week.(Man I was in good shape). Winter came on and the bike rides got less and less, and beer got more and more. I really thought after that first month that I could control it, and I did for a while. But somewhere in not too long a time, I forgot about it. Or made myself forget about it. Glad you are giving it up. Keep coming back. Fred

10-20-2009, 05:31 PM	#7 (permalink)
Butterfly Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Van Nuys, CA Posts: 12	Thanks for sharing your story Fred. I appreciate it. Twelve miles a day, five days a week, you must've been in some kind of shape! Yes, I sure can identify with the forgetting somewhere along the line... It always creeps back out of control for me. As many say,"Not as bad as some, but worse than others..." but I know it's a progressive disease and I don't want to go any farther down the path. Thank-you for your support! Butterfly

10-20-2009, 07:15 PM	#9 (permalink)
Butterfly Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Van Nuys, CA Posts: 12	Thank-you so much Carol. I'm glad you are all here!

10-20-2009, 09:09 PM	#10 (permalink)
mirage Member Join Date: Sep 2009 Posts: 209	Did I hear you say "mirage"? haha. Glad you're here, butterfly. This is such a great place for support...such great folks here. I'm pretty new, but I've gotten a lot from SR already. Best of luck to you!

10-21-2009, 09:46 AM	#12 (permalink)
TheMaster Absolute Evil Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Charlotte NC Posts: 110	I'm a little over a week now, myself...

10-21-2009, 12:42 PM	#13 (permalink)
Butterfly Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Van Nuys, CA Posts: 12	Thank-you for your support Mirage. I think I understand your name! LOL! Thank-you Least. It feels good to be back! Nice to meet you TheMaster. Congratulations on your week!

10-21-2009, 01:12 PM	#14 (permalink)
me11109 The New Me starting 1/11/09 Join Date: Oct 2009 Location: California Posts: 257	Welcome back Butterfly. Yes, those little mind games we play, those sweet whispers of "I can drink like a normy". I must work at it every day. Glad you are here. __________________ The New Me as of 1/11/09 Still searching for that darn wisdom to know the difference. Do you know where I can find some?

10-21-2009, 02:39 PM	#15 (permalink)
Wolfchild Disposable Hero Air Attack 2 Champion! Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: Being, ME Posts: 3,238 Blog Entries: 3	__________________ Any clean addict is a miracle and keeping the miracle alive is an ongoing process of awareness, surrender, and growth

10-21-2009, 03:21 PM	#16 (permalink)
Butterfly Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Location: Van Nuys, CA Posts: 12	Thank-you me11109. Yes, those "sweet little whispers" never remind me how I'll feel in the morning either! Thank-you for the welcome Wolfchild. I really like your signature quote!

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