Still struggling...

[chrisinaustin]

Tina, I might have missed it, but one of the things Carol touched on is it was lifted when she had worked through the steps. Have you worked them through?

Chris

[eggie]

Originally Posted by chrisinaustin

Tina, I might have missed it, but one of the things Carol touched on is it was lifted when she had worked through the steps. Have you worked them through?

Chris

Well Chris, it's funny you should ask... because as I said i was going to, I went to a meeting tonight.... Nobody really brought up a topic so the moderator said let's put step 1 out there on the table and discuss that. great discussions...

So as we were discussing Step 1, I kept looking at the wall and trying to see where I am.
Step 1 - I absolutely admit that I am powerless over alcohol. That is why I choose daily not to drink.

AND THAT'S WHERE I END. RIGHT THERE. For a year and 5 months that's where I have stayed. White Knuckling it. (thanks to whoever brought that up, because i have thought about that ever since you said it. and yes I white-knuckle it every day.)

Step 2 - Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves can restore us to sanity:

Do I believe in a Power greater then myself? Yes. The God of my understanding is the Lord and Leader of my life.
Do I believe He can restore me to sanity? Depends on what the word "Sanity" means. Right now I can't ever imagine not wanting to drink. I weep about it all the time.

So maybe I should move this post over to the 12 Step Support section and ask What does Sanity mean to all of you... and how do I get beyond this step.

So I think I'm moving from "still struggling" to "taking steps".