Planning my next drunk

[jamdls]

Originally Posted by justsomeguy

My mind is trying to kill me. And it wants to make it look like an accident.

That's rather profound, brought back many bad memories.

[Clutch B]

Thank you all so much. I haven't had a drink today.

Sometimes a sober day feels like just another day. Sometimes it feels like a marathon.

As much as I wish staying sober was a do-it-yourself procedure with instant results ... it will never be that way.

Thank you for helping me to stay sober today.

[Boomslang]

Originally Posted by Clutch B

Sometimes a sober day feels like just another day. Sometimes it feels like a marathon.

As much as I wish staying sober was a do-it-yourself procedure with instant results ... it will never be that way.

ain't that the truth. well said.

[Charmie]

im glad you havnt drank clutch,,but sobriety dosnt have to be like this,whe i wnet back to AA at the begining of the year (had a brief spell four yrs ago) i did what was suggested and went to lots of meetings and called folk every day,,after a month i picked up again,i thought there has to be more to it than this,,in my book i am powerless over alcohol and unless things change i am always going to pick up again,wether it takes 2 day/2 months or 2 years,,i didnt want miserable white knuckle sobriety,so i got a sponsor and got on the steps (this is no easy feet in my area,not alot of folk had what i wanted) but,a lady was visiting one of my regular meetings one day and i thought she looked at ease with a quiete confidence,not just going through the motions.so very quickly we got to work! as i was going throught the steps i was confused at times and wanted everything yesterday,,but i was determined that things were going to be different.so i shut up and got on with it,we got to work in april and now my life has changed beyond recognition.i was a hopeless helpless drunk and so spriritually broken that me and everyone around me thought i would just drink until the bitter end.i have a little job now,just cleaning rooms in a guest house but i love it,i have a loving partener,my family are all delighted and my sister said the change in me was phenominal! i wake up on a morning and wonder in awe what the day is going to bring..my cup is indeed half full now if not brimming over.there is a lady new in the fellowship and she recognises me from hospital 4yrs ago when i was in and out with overdoses,had shaven my hair off,was arrested for smashing up a treatment room and i had cut my arms and legs to ribbons (im not a self harmer,was just off my rocker at the time and it seemed like the next great idea!).now this lady saw me at my absolute worse and she sees me now,,free,happy and living life to the full.this could be you,,please make the call.i wish you well and you are in my prayers.