If I could choose - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

c49999 · 09-18-2009, 04:45 PM

LIKE turn back the clocks and choose... Whether I could be a normal, social, moderation drinker or a non-drinker?

I now feel like I'd rather be a non-drinker. I'm actually quite content right now to spend tonight, Friday night, with the kids and no alcohol whatsoever. I am very content with this.

It took a LOOOONG time to get here (and I pray it stays). I've got some really rough stuff going on in real life that's pressing all the drinking buttons but I'm not even interested. Drinking wont fix any of those better than a wax statue of myself.

Lately the former drunken life just doesn't look all that appealing. Its taken a ton of meditating, running, riding, reading and its all been worth it. What do you know, it pays off.

It was not possible for me to know how good sobriety could feel when the first weeks and months were pure hell. Hanging on, even when I doubted there was a good reason for hanging on, actually paid off.

Maybe I got so used to the instant gratification that drinking provided me with that I was left without much patience for the long road of recovery???

joedris · 09-18-2009, 04:58 PM

You know, if I wasn't an alcoholic this question would never cross my mind. And since I'm an alcoholic in recovery, it still doesn't. It reminds me of the question as to whether I'd take a pill that would cure alcoholism (should one ever me invented). These are things I never think about. Maybe I'm too busy trying to stay sober than dream the impossible dream. I'm not trying to rain on your parade here, but these are things that just never cross my mind.

**CarolD** · 09-18-2009, 07:06 PM

I'm really glad to see you are finding your path.

I really can't answer your question as
I truly believe I'm following Gods plan for me.

Good to have you here with us...

c49999 · 09-20-2009, 11:00 AM

Present day sobriety is getting better even if the real world is on a downward spiral.

09-18-2009, 04:45 PM	#1 (permalink)
c49999 Its time for bed Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: Undisclosed Location Posts: 314	If I could choose LIKE turn back the clocks and choose... Whether I could be a normal, social, moderation drinker or a non-drinker? I now feel like I'd rather be a non-drinker. I'm actually quite content right now to spend tonight, Friday night, with the kids and no alcohol whatsoever. I am very content with this. It took a LOOOONG time to get here (and I pray it stays). I've got some really rough stuff going on in real life that's pressing all the drinking buttons but I'm not even interested. Drinking wont fix any of those better than a wax statue of myself. Lately the former drunken life just doesn't look all that appealing. Its taken a ton of meditating, running, riding, reading and its all been worth it. What do you know, it pays off. It was not possible for me to know how good sobriety could feel when the first weeks and months were pure hell. Hanging on, even when I doubted there was a good reason for hanging on, actually paid off. Maybe I got so used to the instant gratification that drinking provided me with that I was left without much patience for the long road of recovery??? __________________ Drink Water, Save Yourself.

09-18-2009, 04:58 PM	#2 (permalink)
joedris Member Join Date: Apr 2009 Location: Virginia Posts: 818	You know, if I wasn't an alcoholic this question would never cross my mind. And since I'm an alcoholic in recovery, it still doesn't. It reminds me of the question as to whether I'd take a pill that would cure alcoholism (should one ever me invented). These are things I never think about. Maybe I'm too busy trying to stay sober than dream the impossible dream. I'm not trying to rain on your parade here, but these are things that just never cross my mind. __________________ God, Please set aside all I think I know about myself, my disease, the Big Book, the 12 Steps, the Program, the people in the fellowship, spiritual terms, and especially about you God so I may have an open mind and a new experience with these things. Amen

09-18-2009, 07:06 PM	#3 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	I'm really glad to see you are finding your path. I really can't answer your question as I truly believe I'm following Gods plan for me. Good to have you here with us... __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

09-20-2009, 11:00 AM	#4 (permalink)
c49999 Its time for bed Join Date: Jun 2009 Location: Undisclosed Location Posts: 314	Present day sobriety is getting better even if the real world is on a downward spiral. __________________ Drink Water, Save Yourself.

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