My Story - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

**CarolD** · 04-25-2006, 01:42 AM

Carol D. DOS 4-25-89

Ah Yes ...
.
Booze Free Love Drugs and Rock and Roll
Anyone else remember the `60`s?
That was the decade that started my downward spiral into
alcoholism. I functioned quite well for many years. I knew I
was an alcoholic long before I tried to quit. My children lived with
my parents...my friends all drank excessively...my finances were in good shape.....
I worked in the hospitality industry where drinking was the norm.

Why Quit? Well....

I detested the woman I had become. I was depressed and did
not know why. I was trapped on the misery-go-round. I drank for fun and
it was no longer fun. I drank to feel less guilt and surrounded my self
with the dark despair of addiction. My soul had withered and died ...drowned with liquor.
After 3 suicide tries, 3 mental hospitals stays, years of therapy..... I still drank

In Total Desperation

I started AA. And still I drank. I was in and out of AA...
up and down like a damned yo-yo. WHY did I still drink?
Then I read a book..." Under The Influence" that explained me that I suffered
from a disease. EUREKA! I was not weak willed or nutso or demon driven.
Gosh! I was ill. I used the information there plus a renewed connection to my God and AA....

I Finally Found Sobriety!!

What a wonderful journey this has been! Showers of blessings! I can talk for hours
about the joy and sense of purpose recovery has given me.
For those still suffering ...for any who question....who see no way out of the chaos..
Please never give up...come join the winners in AA. There is HOPE and understanding
to help you recover from our horrendous disease.

Thanks for letting me share my story.

collinsmi · 04-25-2006, 03:25 AM

Thanks Carol!

Cathy31 · 04-25-2006, 04:00 AM

Happy Birthday Carol! What a privilege to have you here!

Grasshopper · 04-25-2006, 06:06 AM

Happy,happy Birthday,

Thanks for sharring!!!!!

Sugasnaps · 04-25-2006, 07:50 AM

Congratulations Carol!

I'm so glad you are with us.

Suga

Carol87 · 04-25-2006, 08:12 AM

((( CarolD ))) Congratulations!!!

laurie6781 · 04-25-2006, 09:36 AM

Happy Birthday Carol!!!!!!

It does get better and better!!

Love and hugs,

miss communicat · 04-25-2006, 03:51 PM

Happy Birthday and thanks for being such a beacon to so many in recovery!

You are inspiring!

fraankie · 04-25-2006, 05:22 PM

and
good ol' Alfred E. Neuman
"tune in, turn on, drop dead"
Mad magazine cover

MNGirlyGirl · 04-25-2006, 08:00 PM

Thanks for sharing your story, Carol. Congrats!!!! You still rock girl!!

Kathy

lulu70 · 04-25-2006, 08:04 PM

Happy Birthday, Carol. We are so lucky to have you around here.

jmhs002 · 04-25-2006, 08:08 PM

Thanks Carol. AA works for me too.
JMHS

Chy · 04-25-2006, 08:35 PM

Congratulations big sister! Thank you for the lessons and knowledge you share with us. Your a huge inspiration to all. I hope you did something really, really, nice for yourself today. *big hugs*

**Peter** · 04-25-2006, 08:39 PM

Congratulations Carol. You are just too awesome.

***Morning Glory*** · 04-25-2006, 08:48 PM

Congratualations Carol!

Hope · 04-25-2006, 08:51 PM

Thanks for sharing your story. It is so inspiring!

Congratulations Carol!

ElegantlyWasted · 04-25-2006, 09:26 PM

Happy B-day. So inspiring to know others have had similiar experiences with their demons and come out on (top as you have) or at least in a better place (where I am now). Your contributions to this site are invaluable.
-EW

bats_haven · 04-25-2006, 11:16 PM

Happy Birthday and a big congrats

Mike

**CarolD** · 04-26-2006, 05:21 AM

You all helped make my day special.
You are a huge part of my recovery joy!
Thanks!

ASH · 04-26-2006, 05:06 PM

Dear Carol,
Your story is inspiring.

I want to thank you for your help to me personally and to so many others, reading "Under the Influence" and other articles on the web based on your recommendation has had a very positive impact on my sobriety.

Your service rocks and so do you!!!!:

CONGRATULATIONS ON 17 YEARS AND ONE DAY

brdlvr2 · 04-28-2006, 11:47 AM

Congrats!
I've always enjoyed reading your responses to posts in the forums on SR. You are full of wisdom and make good points in such few words! Keep up the good work!

NoMoBeer · 04-28-2006, 12:06 PM

Happy Birthday my friend!!!!

Ken

04-25-2006, 01:42 AM	#1 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	My Story Carol D. DOS 4-25-89 Ah Yes ... . Booze Free Love Drugs and Rock and Roll Anyone else remember the `60`s? That was the decade that started my downward spiral into alcoholism. I functioned quite well for many years. I knew I was an alcoholic long before I tried to quit. My children lived with my parents...my friends all drank excessively...my finances were in good shape..... I worked in the hospitality industry where drinking was the norm. Why Quit? Well.... I detested the woman I had become. I was depressed and did not know why. I was trapped on the misery-go-round. I drank for fun and it was no longer fun. I drank to feel less guilt and surrounded my self with the dark despair of addiction. My soul had withered and died ...drowned with liquor. After 3 suicide tries, 3 mental hospitals stays, years of therapy..... I still drank In Total Desperation I started AA. And still I drank. I was in and out of AA... up and down like a damned yo-yo. WHY did I still drink? Then I read a book..." Under The Influence" that explained me that I suffered from a disease. EUREKA! I was not weak willed or nutso or demon driven. Gosh! I was ill. I used the information there plus a renewed connection to my God and AA.... I Finally Found Sobriety!! What a wonderful journey this has been! Showers of blessings! I can talk for hours about the joy and sense of purpose recovery has given me. For those still suffering ...for any who question....who see no way out of the chaos.. Please never give up...come join the winners in AA. There is HOPE and understanding to help you recover from our horrendous disease. Thanks for letting me share my story. __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

04-25-2006, 03:25 AM	#2 (permalink)
collinsmi Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: Colorado Springs CO Posts: 889	Thanks Carol! __________________ "I was violating my standards faster than I could lower them!"

04-25-2006, 07:50 AM	#5 (permalink)
Sugasnaps Living and Loving. Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Saratoga, California Posts: 475	Congratulations Carol! I'm so glad you are with us. Suga __________________ "Gimme sum suga baby!"

04-25-2006, 08:12 AM	#6 (permalink)
Carol87 Member Join Date: Feb 2003 Location: Nebraska Posts: 187	((( CarolD ))) Congratulations!!! __________________ *"As God's people, we stand on our feet; we don't crawl before anyone." (Page 83, Alcoholics Anonymous)*

04-25-2006, 09:36 AM	#7 (permalink)
laurie6781 Belgian Sheepdog Adictee Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: In Today Posts: 4,638	Happy Birthday Carol!!!!!! It does get better and better!! Love and hugs, __________________ God Bless You All As You Trudge The Road Of Happy Destiny (especially when you trudgin thru alligators up to your butt)

04-25-2006, 04:00 AM	#3 (permalink)
Cathy31 1 bite&all resistance crumbles Join Date: Oct 2004 Location: IRELAND Posts: 2,160	Happy Birthday Carol! What a privilege to have you here!

04-25-2006, 06:06 AM	#4 (permalink)
Grasshopper Member Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: Green,green grass of home Posts: 600	Happy,happy Birthday, Thanks for sharring!!!!!

04-25-2006, 03:51 PM	#8 (permalink)
miss communicat Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: in the present moment Posts: 2,061	Happy Birthday and thanks for being such a beacon to so many in recovery! You are inspiring! __________________ i close my eyes and see clearly i stop trying to listen and hear truth i am silent and my heart sings i seek no contact and find union i am still and move forward i am gentle and need no strength i am humble and remain whole (ancient taoist meditation)

04-25-2006, 05:22 PM	#9 (permalink)
fraankie Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: brooklyn, new york Posts: 1,395	and good ol' Alfred E. Neuman "tune in, turn on, drop dead" Mad magazine cover

04-25-2006, 08:00 PM	#10 (permalink)
MNGirlyGirl Member Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Plymouth, MN Posts: 970	Thanks for sharing your story, Carol. Congrats!!!! You still rock girl!! Kathy __________________ -- The good news is that your feelings come back...The bad news is that your feelings come back.

04-25-2006, 08:04 PM	#11 (permalink)
lulu70 We all need each other. Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: The road of happy destiny. Posts: 2,294	Happy Birthday, Carol. We are so lucky to have you around here. __________________ "You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.....do the thing you think you cannot do." ~Eleanor Roosevelt

04-25-2006, 08:08 PM	#12 (permalink)
jmhs002 Member Join Date: Sep 2004 Location: Minneapolis MN Posts: 404	Thanks Carol. AA works for me too. JMHS __________________ " We stood at the turning point. Half measures availed us nothing."

04-25-2006, 08:35 PM	#13 (permalink)
Chy Member Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx Posts: 5,867	Congratulations big sister! Thank you for the lessons and knowledge you share with us. Your a huge inspiration to all. I hope you did something really, really, nice for yourself today. big hugs

04-25-2006, 08:39 PM	#14 (permalink)
Peter Moderator Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Leaving Sparta Posts: 2,931	Congratulations Carol. You are just too awesome.

04-25-2006, 08:48 PM	#15 (permalink)
*Morning Glory* Administrator Join Date: Mar 2002 Location: CA Posts: 9,968 Blog Entries: 2	Congratualations Carol!

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04-25-2006, 08:51 PM	#16 (permalink)
Hope Member Join Date: Feb 2006 Posts: 3,300	Thanks for sharing your story. It is so inspiring! Congratulations Carol!

04-25-2006, 09:26 PM	#17 (permalink)
ElegantlyWasted Excellence... not Perfection Join Date: Apr 2006 Location: AZ Posts: 1,190 Blog Entries: 8	Happy B-day. So inspiring to know others have had similiar experiences with their demons and come out on (top as you have) or at least in a better place (where I am now). Your contributions to this site are invaluable. -EW __________________ "We're all told at some point in time that we can no longer play the children's game, we just don't...we don't know when that's gonna be. Some of us are told at eighteen, some of us are told at forty, but we're all told."

04-25-2006, 11:16 PM	#18 (permalink)
bats_haven Member Join Date: Jan 2006 Location: coquitlam bc Posts: 64	Happy Birthday and a big congrats Mike __________________ God, Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Courage to Change the things I can and the Wisdom to know the difference

04-26-2006, 05:21 AM	#19 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 34,835	You all helped make my day special. You are a huge part of my recovery joy! Thanks! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

04-26-2006, 05:06 PM	#20 (permalink)
ASH Member Join Date: Sep 2005 Location: New Focus Posts: 687	Dear Carol, Your story is inspiring. I want to thank you for your help to me personally and to so many others, reading "Under the Influence" and other articles on the web based on your recommendation has had a very positive impact on my sobriety. Your service rocks and so do you!!!!: CONGRATULATIONS ON 17 YEARS AND ONE DAY

04-28-2006, 11:47 AM	#21 (permalink)
brdlvr2 Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: The burbs, Maryland Posts: 130	Congrats! I've always enjoyed reading your responses to posts in the forums on SR. You are full of wisdom and make good points in such few words! Keep up the good work!

04-28-2006, 12:06 PM	#22 (permalink)
NoMoBeer Member Join Date: Jun 2003 Location: Arizona Posts: 872	Happy Birthday my friend!!!! Ken __________________ "Run with endurance the race God has set out before you..." -- Hebrews 12

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