Checking in, avoiding the slip

[Molendie]

Some of you know me, My name's Tim, I'm an alcoholic and an addict from Ohio. I dont post often, especially my own threads, but I'm always reading. This place has been a big part of my sobriety. I've been sober now for about 2 1/2 years.

Right now I am moving and getting ready to be married in a few months, and then move again. I'm adjusting to being a step dad to a toddler, and several months later I am still dealing with the untimely death of my cousin.

Thank God for sobriety. I try to remember how grateful I am to be so blessed today. Lately I've found myself having pity parties in my mind but I am quick to remember how much God has blessed me these past 2 1/2 years.
I went from being homeless and literally on the verge of death to being an engaged college graduate with an acutal job and pretty good health! God is good!

Anyways, for a while now I feel like I've been slipping. I was taught relapse isn't an over night thing, its a process. I try to do the next right thing to avoid getting on that slippery downward slope but as of late I've been struggling with cigs again, consumed in sin, falling away from God, not getting to enough meetings, and not talking to my sponsor enough. This isn't good.

For awhile I was okay with fewer land meetings because I was doing a lot of online message boards, chatrooms and also a lot of daily readings But I've been slipping with those lately also. I started a recovery website and put a lot of time and money into it, and thus far it's been a flop, so that sucks. The address is www.sobercircle.com btw.

I just really needed to post and lay it all out there. If you feel like replying thanks. I just need to focus on today, stay grateful, do the next right thing and PRAY! I have it all figured out that if I go to church on sundays, a meeting on saturday, MA chatroom I go to several times a week, daily readings, daily prayer, and weekly contact with my sponsor then I am set. I wouldnt recommend this to others, I've been sober awhile and found a good balance, I just havn't been reaching that as of late lol.

Well I love you guys. Thanks for being here. Sorry this is a novel. I pray you all are safe, sane, and sober.

-Tim

[CarolD]

Hi Tim.... glad to see you here

Double congrats on your upcoming marriage and your sober time!

[Cathy31]

Tim
I am so happy for your progress. I will check out your website...why not try some face to face meetings, you know they always do work!!
Great to have you here!
ALL the best with the wonderful things coming up for you - keep it in the day!
Cathy31
x

[miss communicat]

greetings Tim!

Your progress is both internal as well as external and is beautiful. Stay with us a while, get to your meetings and slip into something more spiritual while you continue to not drink.

Kudos on the website! Great job there!

[hector]

Hi, Tim. Glad you're here. Congrats on 2 1/2 years. Congrats on having the courage to get married.

You're right, a relapse is a journey, not an event. The last thing you do is drink. If you think you're slipping, you are.

So what do you do now? Your life depends on the answer. You can continue to slip all the way to a drink, or you can get back on track. I hope and pray you'll choose the latter. Don't drink, no matter what. You know what to do. You know how your program works. Get busy! Now! you can't tread water, swim don't sink. You have no time to lose.

Whatever you have that you value more than your sobriety, that's what you're going to lose. If you're too busy for what you call "land meetings" (f2F), you're too fricking busy. Get to more meetings. Get a sponsor. Don't let Sobriety Lose Its Priority.

I've been sober over 17 years. Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together.

[2dayzmuse]

Congratulations Tim! Yep, get back on track and you'll feel much better. Good luck...

[collinsmi]

All my drinking slips, I slowly dropped all the things I was supposed to be doing, and had a sense of optimism, "maybe I don't need this stuff after all". Today, I go through phases that start out like that, but living seems problematic enough to drive me back to action.