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Chy · 12-14-2005, 07:09 AM

I just woke up from the worst drinking dream ever. So vivid, real, scary. I'm sick to my stomach and shaking like the morning after and my sponsor is in a meeting. I've never been so scared isince the day I stopped. I want to cry, scream beat something to a pulp. Not to mention this has been the second one in a row.. WTF!!

.. I need toheed my own suggestion and realize it's my reminder as to why I can never drink again.. but damn it I'm going to be sick.

Dan · 12-14-2005, 07:19 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Chy

I want to cry, scream beat something to a pulp.

An inanimate object, preferably...

I hate the first few moments after waking up, when I get the dreams...
I almost feel guilty for the pleasure I sometimes feel in these...
Drinking dreams are the worst for me, because it's still so fresh in my mind.
Haven't done cocaine in almost 16 years, but I still get vivid coke dreams.
I don't know...
Maybe it's an indication of just how deeply we've impacted our lives when we were active, Chy.
Good reminder indeed.
Recovery is the work of a lifetime, and a lifetime of work.

tabuki · 12-14-2005, 07:25 AM

The Blessing of this Chy, It's only a Dream. Now you can reflect on the reality that you are clean and sober, and the Blessings and Joys that have come about because of it.

Thank you for reminding me that I am an Alcoholic and will always be an Alcoholic, that's ok today. Because this sickness is treatable, and that's a blessing.

Your pain last couple of nights is my gain, thank you for sharing them. And if I am able to offer a blessing, my it be that for the next few weeks to come you may only dream of things that bring you Joy in your life.

Thanks again, my you have a great day despite of your night.

Tabuki

historyteach · 12-14-2005, 07:26 AM

(((Chy)))
I'm so sorry....

I've had smoking dreams recently and during my last quit. They are scary.
Read some recovery literature; take some deep breaths and be grateful it's just a dream. Yes, our use has indeed impacted us, as Dan says. And a very good reminder of why we can't use again.
Take it easy, Chy...we're here for you... So, do whatever it is you need to do to get this out of your head.

Shalom, my friend...

cooky · 12-14-2005, 07:35 AM

Chy
This sickness just showed you how strong it really is.I know the dreams I had were so vivid It was just like I was really there.Thank GOD we now have the tools to work with.My first response was thank you GOD for this not being real.Nothing to cry about.Count your blessings and be thankfull for your sobriety.Clean and sober this is what life is about today.So hang in there and God bless.
Bob

bikewench · 12-14-2005, 07:41 AM

Hey Chy...??

Something goin on underneath your reluctant to look at..????

just a thought...
the two in a row.. makes me wonder.. ;o)

Sheryl85 · 12-14-2005, 07:58 AM

Chy,

If you can’t get to your sponsor, then work with another alcoholic. Make this an opportunity to do good by an uncomfortable experience. What you can use is the feelings that you had because of the dream. Draw on those feelings to help you be empathetic to someone who is in the actual throws of what you dreamed. It’s like a refresher course without having the totally devastating repercussions.

When this happens to me, I sit quietly and review the past few days. What has got me upset enough to bring out this reminder? Have I been slacking on my conscious contact with my Higher Power? (I feel my alcoholic malady is three fold… physical, mental and spiritual. Today, I get sicker quicker from the spiritual side of my program than the other two.) Am I practicing the principles in all my affairs? Skimping on my steps? Is there one (or two) that need attention? Am I remembering to work Step One 100% today? Or am I losing sight of the fact my life is still unmanageable by me? Have I been working with others or have I been isolating again?

It usually only takes a few minutes of quiet reflection to gain the insight that I am needing. If it remains a problem, I throw myself even the harder into working with others. (The book says that’s one way to help insure my sobriety and I find that I usually say to others that which I need to hear for myself.)

Hope this helps. I hate to see anyone go through this, but if we can take away some of the mystery of why it happens, then it’s not so frightening. Let us know how it goes because it could help others going through the same thing.

Dan · 12-14-2005, 08:06 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bikewench

Something goin on underneath your reluctant to look at..????

In my case, that is invariably true.
When my subconscious brings me back to the hell place, there's something triggering that.

laurie6781 · 12-14-2005, 09:54 AM

Chy:

There may be "something goin on underneath you're reluctant to look at...???" or it is just the season.

Drinking and Using dreams are much more common at this time of year because of the "stress" prior to the holiday. ie House to be decorated, gifts to buy, time to manage, food to get, cards to send out, etc etc etc.

Find some quiet time for yourself, take a nice aromatic bubble bath, etc . Be grateful, it was only a dream, and an excellent reminder of where you used to be.

Take some deep breathes and relax.

Thank you so much for sharing this, as its a great reminder for this old alkie, that I MUST take care of me first before others, lol. You know.........God first, then myself, then those around me in order of importance to me.

You have my home phone number, call me anytime you need to sweetie, and I will call you right back as I have unlimited long distance, and since you are over the state line it is long distance, roflmao.

Have a great day Chy!!!!!! I will say an extra prayer for you today.

Love and hugs,

**CarolD** · 12-14-2005, 10:29 AM

Chy hon..I am soo sorry..

I have been noticing how off kilter SR is this past week.
Members huffing off...post slamming each other...
endless carping on anothers opinions..."he did or she said"...

Tis the season to be nutso?

Hugs and Prayers zinging your way. Chocolate heals.

fraankie · 12-14-2005, 10:31 AM

yeah, those dreams are a bummer
but
i think it's kinda neat
that it was only a dream
and
i didn't really pick up

best
fraankie

Sheryl85 · 12-14-2005, 10:47 AM

I didn't want to say it, but I was thinking what CarolD said. It could be having an influence.

Let's just shake it off!

KelKel · 12-14-2005, 10:58 AM

(((Chy)))
Hugs going out to you.
I know too well that feeling....hate those darn drinking dreams

Music · 12-14-2005, 11:03 AM

Don't worry Chy. I still have one once in a while. Gives me reason to thank God I don't have to live like that any more. Love ya.

Justme57 · 12-14-2005, 11:40 AM

Oh Chy ((((((((((hugx))))))))))

it was you who reassured and comforted ME when I ad my first one

Now I return the comfort ..... in spades

HUGX
Lee

Chy · 12-14-2005, 11:49 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by bikewench

Hey Chy...??

Something goin on underneath your reluctant to look at..????

Lots going on wench, thanks. Thank you all I've never had such crocodile tears. I did hear from my sponsor and we're meeting at a meeting this evening. She knows what ails me and I've been trying to turn it over...but damn it if I don't keep taking it back....love, hugs, and thanks, this to shall pass.

Chy · 12-14-2005, 11:53 AM

....and Carol, wouldn't ya know one of my Seniors brings me the biggest hugest chocolate brownie this morning... just because. Ask me if there is any left?

Dan · 12-14-2005, 12:08 PM

Unexpected chocolate...
Finest kind

Sheryl85 · 12-14-2005, 12:31 PM

Quote:

She knows what ails me and I've been trying to turn it over...but damn it if I don't keep taking it back...

As my friend Ken S. is so fond of saying, "If you find you can't let go of something, try holding on a little looser."

Hang in there!

**CarolD** · 12-14-2005, 12:33 PM

Ahem... ER,,,Ah....
notice how your real SR gave you what this net SR suggested?
I got powerful vibes sweetie!

Give the kid an A for being Atuned!!!

bikewench · 12-14-2005, 01:05 PM

Quote:

Unexpected chocolate...
Finest kind

hehehe...

ya...

Little Missy · 12-14-2005, 04:30 PM

((Chy)) Glad you are feeling better!! I hope you don't mind, I wanted to share one of my dreams.

I was sitting on a bar stool next to my husband, drinking beer and rum and coke. All the sudden, the sober me walks up on the other side of my husband. He turned and looked at the sober me and said, "Thank G*d you're here!"

Pretty freaking weird, but cool!!

May you have the sweetest dreams ever tonight!!

Big Hugs,
Missy

Chy · 12-14-2005, 08:11 PM

...thanks all still a tad out of sorts after meeting but at least the shakes have stopped.

historyteach · 12-14-2005, 08:33 PM

(((Chy)))
I'm sorry...

My prayers for your peace of mind...
Shalom!

fraankie · 12-15-2005, 07:46 PM

yeah,
those dreams can get to you
but
at least you wake up sober

12-14-2005, 07:09 AM	#1 (permalink)
Chy Member Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx Posts: 5,877	A doozy! I just woke up from the worst drinking dream ever. So vivid, real, scary. I'm sick to my stomach and shaking like the morning after and my sponsor is in a meeting. I've never been so scared isince the day I stopped. I want to cry, scream beat something to a pulp. Not to mention this has been the second one in a row.. WTF!! .. I need toheed my own suggestion and realize it's my reminder as to why I can never drink again.. but damn it I'm going to be sick.

12-14-2005, 07:25 AM	#3 (permalink)
tabuki Service is a Key Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Alliance, Oh Posts: 25	Thank You!!!!!! The Blessing of this Chy, It's only a Dream. Now you can reflect on the reality that you are clean and sober, and the Blessings and Joys that have come about because of it. Thank you for reminding me that I am an Alcoholic and will always be an Alcoholic, that's ok today. Because this sickness is treatable, and that's a blessing. Your pain last couple of nights is my gain, thank you for sharing them. And if I am able to offer a blessing, my it be that for the next few weeks to come you may only dream of things that bring you Joy in your life. Thanks again, my you have a great day despite of your night. Tabuki __________________ Don't re-invent the wheel, it's been around too long and it works!!!!! AA is the way!!!

12-14-2005, 07:26 AM	#4 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 8,884	(((Chy))) I'm so sorry.... I've had smoking dreams recently and during my last quit. They are scary. Read some recovery literature; take some deep breaths and be grateful it's just a dream. Yes, our use has indeed impacted us, as Dan says. And a very good reminder of why we can't use again. Take it easy, Chy...we're here for you... So, do whatever it is you need to do to get this out of your head. Shalom, my friend... __________________ IMAGINE

12-14-2005, 07:58 AM	#7 (permalink)
Sheryl85 '55 Classic Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Waco, TX Posts: 619	Chy, If you can’t get to your sponsor, then work with another alcoholic. Make this an opportunity to do good by an uncomfortable experience. What you can use is the feelings that you had because of the dream. Draw on those feelings to help you be empathetic to someone who is in the actual throws of what you dreamed. It’s like a refresher course without having the totally devastating repercussions. When this happens to me, I sit quietly and review the past few days. What has got me upset enough to bring out this reminder? Have I been slacking on my conscious contact with my Higher Power? (I feel my alcoholic malady is three fold… physical, mental and spiritual. Today, I get sicker quicker from the spiritual side of my program than the other two.) Am I practicing the principles in all my affairs? Skimping on my steps? Is there one (or two) that need attention? Am I remembering to work Step One 100% today? Or am I losing sight of the fact my life is still unmanageable by me? Have I been working with others or have I been isolating again? It usually only takes a few minutes of quiet reflection to gain the insight that I am needing. If it remains a problem, I throw myself even the harder into working with others. (The book says that’s one way to help insure my sobriety and I find that I usually say to others that which I need to hear for myself.) Hope this helps. I hate to see anyone go through this, but if we can take away some of the mystery of why it happens, then it’s not so frightening. Let us know how it goes because it could help others going through the same thing. __________________ "Temper is a quality that at a critical moment brings out the best in steel and worst in people." - William Grohse NOTE: All Big Book quotes are from the First Edition of the Big Book

12-14-2005, 09:54 AM	#9 (permalink)
laurie6781 Belgian Sheepdog Adictee Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: New Mexico Posts: 2,976	Chy: There may be "something goin on underneath you're reluctant to look at...???" or it is just the season. Drinking and Using dreams are much more common at this time of year because of the "stress" prior to the holiday. ie House to be decorated, gifts to buy, time to manage, food to get, cards to send out, etc etc etc. Find some quiet time for yourself, take a nice aromatic bubble bath, etc . Be grateful, it was only a dream, and an excellent reminder of where you used to be. Take some deep breathes and relax. Thank you so much for sharing this, as its a great reminder for this old alkie, that I MUST take care of me first before others, lol. You know.........God first, then myself, then those around me in order of importance to me. You have my home phone number, call me anytime you need to sweetie, and I will call you right back as I have unlimited long distance, and since you are over the state line it is long distance, roflmao. Have a great day Chy!!!!!! I will say an extra prayer for you today. Love and hugs, __________________ God Bless You All As You Trudge The Road Of Happy Destiny (especially when you trudgin thru alligators up to your butt)

12-14-2005, 07:35 AM	#5 (permalink)
cooky Member Join Date: Dec 2005 Location: Lakeside OH. Posts: 62	Chy This sickness just showed you how strong it really is.I know the dreams I had were so vivid It was just like I was really there.Thank GOD we now have the tools to work with.My first response was thank you GOD for this not being real.Nothing to cry about.Count your blessings and be thankfull for your sobriety.Clean and sober this is what life is about today.So hang in there and God bless. Bob

12-14-2005, 07:41 AM	#6 (permalink)
bikewench Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: western canada Posts: 1,440	Hey Chy...?? Something goin on underneath your reluctant to look at..???? just a thought... the two in a row.. makes me wonder.. ;o)

12-14-2005, 10:29 AM	#10 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 21,891	O my! Chy hon..I am soo sorry.. I have been noticing how off kilter SR is this past week. Members huffing off...post slamming each other... endless carping on anothers opinions..."he did or she said"... Tis the season to be nutso? Hugs and Prayers zinging your way. Chocolate heals. __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! :

12-14-2005, 10:31 AM	#11 (permalink)
fraankie Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: brooklyn, new york Posts: 1,423	yeah, those dreams are a bummer but i think it's kinda neat that it was only a dream and i didn't really pick up best fraankie

12-14-2005, 10:47 AM	#12 (permalink)
Sheryl85 '55 Classic Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Waco, TX Posts: 619	I didn't want to say it, but I was thinking what CarolD said. It could be having an influence. Let's just shake it off! __________________ "Temper is a quality that at a critical moment brings out the best in steel and worst in people." - William Grohse NOTE: All Big Book quotes are from the First Edition of the Big Book

12-14-2005, 10:58 AM	#13 (permalink)
KelKel Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: The Mohave Desert Posts: 2,312	(((Chy))) Hugs going out to you. I know too well that feeling....hate those darn drinking dreams

12-14-2005, 11:03 AM	#14 (permalink)
Music Member Join Date: Oct 2002 Location: Zion, Illinois Posts: 1,870	Don't worry Chy. I still have one once in a while. Gives me reason to thank God I don't have to live like that any more. Love ya. __________________

12-14-2005, 11:40 AM	#15 (permalink)
Justme57 Member Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Melbourne victoria Posts: 1,980 Blog Entries: 7	Oh Chy ((((((((((hugx)))))))))) it was you who reassured and comforted ME when I ad my first one Now I return the comfort ..... in spades HUGX Lee

12-14-2005, 11:53 AM	#17 (permalink)
Chy Member Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx Posts: 5,877	....and Carol, wouldn't ya know one of my Seniors brings me the biggest hugest chocolate brownie this morning... just because. Ask me if there is any left?

12-14-2005, 12:08 PM	#18 (permalink)
Dan Member Join Date: Apr 2004 Posts: 8,723	Unexpected chocolate... Finest kind

12-14-2005, 12:33 PM	#20 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 21,891	Ahem... ER,,,Ah.... notice how your real SR gave you what this net SR suggested? I got powerful vibes sweetie! Give the kid an A for being Atuned!!! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! :

12-14-2005, 04:30 PM	#22 (permalink)
Little Missy NOT EVEN 1 CLUB!! Join Date: Apr 2004 Location: When I find myself, I'll let you know! Posts: 1,831	((Chy)) Glad you are feeling better!! I hope you don't mind, I wanted to share one of my dreams. I was sitting on a bar stool next to my husband, drinking beer and rum and coke. All the sudden, the sober me walks up on the other side of my husband. He turned and looked at the sober me and said, "Thank G*d you're here!" Pretty freaking weird, but cool!! May you have the sweetest dreams ever tonight!! Big Hugs, Missy __________________ May all your days be filled with love and laughter!

12-14-2005, 08:11 PM	#23 (permalink)
Chy Member Join Date: May 2003 Location: El Paso, Tx Posts: 5,877	...thanks all still a tad out of sorts after meeting but at least the shakes have stopped.

12-14-2005, 08:33 PM	#24 (permalink)
historyteach To Life! Join Date: Oct 2003 Location: Rhode Island Posts: 8,884	(((Chy))) I'm sorry... My prayers for your peace of mind... Shalom! __________________ IMAGINE

12-15-2005, 07:46 PM	#25 (permalink)
fraankie Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: brooklyn, new york Posts: 1,423	yeah, those dreams can get to you but at least you wake up sober

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