having a tough time

[spencer21]

Had a horrible weekend...This week marks my departure from NYC due to excessive drinking and failed attempts at sobriety...Back in MA now...After this past weekend I don't know what to do...Same old story...I go on streaks - flashes where I think I am getting better...I hit meetings and walk the walk but it somehow always fades...Feeling rather hopeless...I feel as though people around me are beginning to give up on me and its very scary...I want my life back.
Anyone know any good meetings in and around Boston...I live in Charlestown...

[best]

Malden has a 24 hour coffee house.
Here is a listing of the Boston area meetings as well.

http://www.aaboston.org/meetings.asp

[brigid]

you CAN do this

love brigid

[NoMoBeer]

Spencer...
We have a daily reprieve based on our spiritual condition....
I, too, was in and out of the program for a good year or so before it hit me that this is a lifestyle, and that I really need to work the steps with a sponsor.

I tell everyone that -- I'm like a broken record -- "get to meetings, get a sponsor, work the steps." WORK the steps. For me, I did OK.... Step 1..... Step 2.....Step 3.........................................st...... .....e.....p...........what do I have to do? Inventory? DRINK.................................start over...................Step 1....................DRINK......................et c........

I guess it took what it took, but I had to be willing to GO TO ANY LENGTHS to stay sober. When I got my a$$ in gear and got to work on the steps, things started to change.

Page 14 says "...simple but not easy, a price had to be paid." I believe that is true -- the program is simple, but we have to do the work it takes to stay sober.

Dust yourself off, find some meetings in your area, don't regret the past, and move forward.

Ken

[fraankie]

This week marks my departure from NYC due to excessive drinking and failed attempts at sobriety.

i used to do that
i pass somewhere i drank and "OH, NO..."

get away from that
this week marks a new way of living
go to a meeting and share about it


I hit meetings and walk the walk but it somehow always fades...Feeling rather hopeless.

yeah, me. too
i heard many share
act "as if..."
as if i'm doing good
as if i'm a star in the program
as if it's not fading
as if it's getting brighter

play the big book game
and
it helps to get familiar with the book


best
fraankie

[fraankie]

This week marks my departure from NYC due to excessive drinking and failed attempts at sobriety.

i used to do that
i pass somewhere i drank and "OH, NO..."

get away from that
this week marks a new way of living
go to a meeting and share about it


I hit meetings and walk the walk but it somehow always fades...Feeling rather hopeless.

yeah, me. too
i heard many share
act "as if..."
as if i'm doing good
as if i'm a star in the program
as if it's not fading
as if it's getting brighter

play the big book game
and
it helps to get familiar with the book


best
fraankie

[Little Missy]

Welcome to SR!! I believe you can do this. Many have felt that they were the exception.

Look back at the times you started drinking again. Find out what the reason was. We have to work on ourselves. I have changed my life and my way of thinking. I love my life now and am very grateful to be sober today.

One day at time you can do this!!

Glad you found us, keep posting!!
Missy

[jlo34]

Spencer,
I had a really hard time getting sober. I would buy that I had a "drinking problem"; but couldn't see how it made my life unmanagable...

I finally was able to accept me being an alcoholic in my heart AND in my mind. I was finally able to see how unmanagable my life really was. I began working the steps and talking about how UNMANAGABLE my life was as a direct result of my drinking. Finding out that I was NOT in fact, unique, like I had once thought. In fact, there were a lot of people that could relate with me.

My suggestion...get to lots of meetings, get a sponsor or two (the real hard-a$$es) and do whatever they tell you to do. Perhaps also go with journaling. Perhaps a written first step so you have it in black and white...that way, you can't forget what it was like...

Good luck,
Jen

[CarolD]

Hi and Welcome to SR!

It's good to see a new member.