Ruminations

[Janet L]

I've been thinking today, as I often do when it gets near an "anniversary" time.
Two years minus 2 weeks since I first got sober. I'd been on leave of absence from work for a week after being sent home for drinking on the job. I didn't want to drink, I had to. Well, at home with nothing to do but drink. I'm glad for it- it brought my bottom closer to me. My first sobriety date was May 7, 2002.

Went to AA after treatment, got a sponsor, went to meetings, worked the steps, life got lots better. Until I decided to go off my antidepressants. Got very depressed, nothing helped, couldn't work the steps. Relapsed. Drank for 3 weeks before I decided it was going nowhere fast! From that 3 weeks of drinking, it took a month to recover physically.

That was one week shy of 8 months ago. I've done the same things I did the first time, but in a different way. I got a different sponsor who has helped me see things in a whole new way. I approached the steps differently; I guess the experience in AA helped. I think things just came too easy the first time. Today I'm a lot more deliberate in practicing the principles. The promises are definately coming true in my life.

I guess it's all about gratitude...There are very few days when I feel restless, irritable, and discontent. And I love the spirituality of the program! What did I do to deserve this? Absolutely nothing

Today I love life, when before nothing was ever good enough.

Thank you for being part of my sobriety :throb

[mackat]

yah janet!!
"they will always materialize, if we work for them." p 84 big book
thanks for sharing your gratitude.
mackat

[Justme57]

WOW! Janet ! Your post is such an inspiration to me ! Congratulations on your nearly 2 years ! Awesome effort !

I am only 6 months sober , and feel I am growing very slightly , bit by bit . Tiny , tiny steps , but growth nontheless, and it is inspiring to me , to see someone like you , who has worked the steps, and grown .

Thank you for that today !

HUGX
Lee

[Janet L]

sorry I wasn't clear. I'll have 8 mos on the 30th. That's cool to me!

[Chy]

Congratulations Janet and thanks for sharing!

[The Jay Walker]

Congrats Janet

sometimes i wonder the same thing, I see people that are so resistant to AA, if they only knew what they are missing.

[Justme57]

8 months is still very cool Janet , and it is STILL an inspiration to me , when people share their growth

Thank you

HUGX
lee

[MootPoint]

Congrats on the almost 8 months, Janet! I'll have 7 months on the 10th