AA Big Book Quote 4/22

[Justme57]

During all this time we became more or less ostrasized by our friends . We could not be invited out because I would surely get tight and my wife dared not invite people in for the same reason. My phobia for sleeplessness demanded that I get drunk every night , but in order to get more liquor for the next night, I had to stay sober during the day, at least up to four o'clock . This routine went on with few interruptions for 17 years. It was a really horrible nightmare, this earning money, getting liquor,smuggling it home, getting drunk, morning jitters, taking large doses of sedatives to make it possible for me to earn more money, and so on ad nauseam. I used to promise my wife, my friends, and my children that I would drink no more------- promises which seldom kept me sober even thru the day, though I was very sincere when I made them.

BB 3rd Edition p 177

HUGX
Lee

[In memory of miracle]

How I could ID with that! The lonliness having to use because physically I had to (not to mention the mental terror)The promises made and broken yet again..I dont miss that! Who in their right mind would?The restoration of some sanity! I am grateful to be free today..one day at a time..love that book! :tri The program works.