Daily Reflection for 1/18/2013
 

WOULD A DRINK HELP?

By going back in our own drinking histories, we could show that years before we realized it we were out of control, that our drinking even then was no mere habit, that it was indeed the beginning of a fatal progression.

TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 23

When I was still drinking, I couldn't respond to any of life's situations the way other, more healthy, people could. The smallest incident triggered a state of mind that believed I had to have a drink to numb my feelings. But the numbing did not improve the situation, so I sought further escape in the bottle. Today I must be aware of my alcoholism. I cannot afford to believe that I have gained control of my drinking -- or again I will think I have gained control of my life. Such a feeling of control is fatal to my recovery.

c 1990 Daily Reflections Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, INC.

"Or think I have gained control of my life" stuck out to me. How I easily want to take credit for what's happened to me. God did this. God has and continues to allow me to experience these things so I can be more useful to others in the future.

"The notion that we can ever drink like normal people, must be SMASHED."

The last 8-10 years of my drinking where so hard. The shaking, vomitting, loss of control of bowls, ect... Omg all those years, and its so easy for this alcoholic to forget how it was.. Thank god I have 1000 + meetings to choose from weekly to remind me.:)

Flashbacks! Yuck!

So grateful for that life to be of the past. I will
Continue to work my booty off to stay away from it.

Such a feeling of control leads me to a drink.

The delusion that I can safely drink.

Day 7

Awesome V!!!