He even thanked me
I have a really good friend in recovery whom I met in this room and I called him a few weeks ago when I relapsed on cough medicine .
I was really sad and remorseful and filled with shame and he said deeker you are working the 12th step right this minute. I said
"How is that ?" .
He said he needed to hear about my relapse and what thinking preceded the relapse. He even thanked me.
He said I was helping him even in the midst of my relapse. He encouraged me and did not judge me but told me he loved me .
He told me how much God loved me. He told me he believed it happened for me to recognize what I had and had not been doing in my recovery . He told me my story would one day help another alkie .
He is the reason I made it back in 6 hrs. Had he treated me any differently I may not have made it back but he showed me grace and mercy .
I still reach out to new people, But I don't tell them what to do anymore .
I just let them know I am here if they need someone to listen and that I do understand how baffling this illness is.
I try to give them hope and encouragement. I know I have to work on myself now before I can transmit recovery to someone else but I have another purpose in mind and that is to serve my God. To love others with a genuine concern . So I try to post messages of hope.
To show love, tolerance and acceptance so that they will give this program a chance .
There are some very special people I have met in the program. People who have not given up on me .
People with real intergrity who have not stood in judgement but truly gave me constructive criticism because they cared and or had been through it themselves .Those are the people who are truly working their program.
We all only have this day.
I am grateful for this God Given Program and the people in it, and I will always be reaching out to others with the love of God because I care .