newby1961

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"We do not like to pronounce any individual as alcoholic, but you can
quickly diagnose yourself, Step over to the nearest barroom and try
some controlled drinking. Try to drink and stop abruptly. Try it
more than once. It will not take long for you to decide, if you are
honest with yourself about it. It may be worth a bad case of jitters
if you get a full knowledge of your condition."

~ Alcoholics Anonymous 1st Edition More About Alcoholism pg. 31
c Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, INC.

Elisabeth888

It is not worth the jitters for me to drink! I guess I am in full acceptance of my alcoholism.

Fernaceman

Lol the self-diagnoses of Chapter 3. Cracks me up but it's definitely a chapter I can relate soooooo much to!

Cephas

LOL. My sponsor's sister said she is not an alcoholic. She said she controls her drinking. He asked her if she controlled her broccoli eating to.....LOL

I know this is not a funny topic but sometimes it is good to laugh at our insanity.

newby1961

I so agree with you if I didn't laugh at my insanity I would probably be in a corner in a fetal position somewhere bawling my eyes out those first few years around here.

tomsteve

i can laugh at the insanity now because i see it. when i was drinkin it wasnt me that was nuts, it was everyone else.

IndaMiricale

I so agree with everyone here. I know I went to the corner bar everyday, but with no intention of controlling my drinking. Other than the first couple shots I tried to control them from spilling. Because it took two hands sometimes..

I still shake today, but its okay. For one its a great reminder. And also its no where as near as bad as it was.

Fernaceman

I still shake as well. Beginning to wonder if t will ever go away. Oh well if it doesn't!

IndaMiricale

According to my doctors, I was told that I always will have these tremors. I had done enough nerve damage. It did subside alot over the months. But comes around out of nowhere sometimes. And specially if I get nervous.

But I hope this is not your the case for you..

Fernaceman

Yeah if my nerves act up, forget about it I can't even write. Had almost 6 months before and they were still there. Kind of used to it now so ah well. Still better than when I worke in a kitchen with razor sharp knives and tremors!

IndaMiricale

Awesome your a chef also..

I have been in the fine dining gig for over 20 years. Culinary school in San Fran. Worked in Boulder, Cali, Hawaii, and for Chef Symon here in Cleveland. I had to leave it , to get sober. I cant handle the lifestyle now. Maybe down the road. I started a small business making pierogi now, its going fairly well. And my sights are set on a food truck here in Cleveland.

Good to have another chef here. You and nonblondechef ...

Fernaceman

Not so much of a professional chef these days, but thinkin about getting into it again. Tryin to wait until everything is more stable until any big moves are made.

IndaMiricale

Good plan my friend.

Take it one day at a time. Do the next right thing , and all these wonders keep coming our way.

shaun00

Nice and simple isn't it......go try some drinking.
Maybe the "honest with yourself"...not simple.

I see plenty of people struggle with the big question, "am i alcoholic or not"
and there it is in black and white...

Im so grateful that i was smashed to pieces when i finally got honest with myself.
Because i doubt whether i was capable of honestly seeing it, till i was done, till the suicide question became an option, i really was sick to the core of drinking and the mental torture of not drinking.

Im so grateful for the people that made heart wrenching decisions that helped speed up that "crash and burn" process......like my lovely mum, whom turned her back on me...to try and help me....that decision made her ill..

I think we get to that point where we just.."break"....the BS excuses not longer work....moments of painful clarity .

I laughed when i read that part with my first sponsor.., im done, im totally and utterly done, i don't need to try some controlled drinking...