I would wonder if I ever did get the spiritual awakening - I mean, I have had some spiritual experiences, but a spiritual awakening? Was there a certificate I got in the mail when that happened?
But the reading here lines up with what I always felt deep down - that the insanity and inner turmoil was lifted and there was a sense of peace and tranquility. I must still work at these through my prayer and meditation, working with others, etc. but at a deep level, I know that I don't have the calamity in my spiritual body that I used to have. And that could only come from a spiritual awakening as a result of working the steps.