Big Book Quotes - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

newby1961 · 10-24-2012, 12:23 AM

"More than most people, the alcoholic leads a double life. He is very much the actor. To the outer world he presents his stage character. This is the one he likes his fellows to see. He wants to enjoy a certain reputation, but knows in his heart he doesn't deserve it."

~ Alcoholics Anonymous 1st Edition Into Action pg 73
c Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, INC.

pipparina · 10-24-2012, 02:28 AM

Wow, it has been awhile since I've seen these few sentences. This was the feeling I had that someday, "they" were going to figure out I was a fraud. I heard in the rooms many others expressing the same fear. Took awhile to go away, that feeling of "being found out". And I don't mean about my drinking, but that I wasn't really who I said I was.

I still wonder sometimes, at work, if they know what a joke I am. I still can't seem to understand that I actually know what I'm doing most of the time, and not just making it all up as I go along

IndaMiricale · 10-24-2012, 05:30 AM

Yes I dont miss the life of living 10 lifes.

I filled that chameleon all to well for decades. Its a pleasure to have one life to tell today..

Have a wonderful day

bbthumper · 10-24-2012, 07:21 AM

Remember that awful feeling when one person or group of people with whom you acted one way was in the same place as another person or group with whom you acted another way? Trying to figure out how to act with both there at the same time? Sickening! So much energy spent on that foolishness.

CaiHong · 10-24-2012, 04:27 PM

I have been asking myself who am I really lately, the personality that I liked to identify with, kind, generous, easy going, witty isn't really who I am at all quite the opposite.
I thought after one year of sobriety all would be well but more is being revealed and coming to terms with it is a challenge and its people here on SR and in AA seem to be the only ones that understand what is really going on and the importance of finding ones real self.
CaiHong

newby1961 · 10-25-2012, 12:15 AM

Some great responses from all. I have been sober almost 9 years and there are still some days that I feel like I still don't know who I really am? Or I wonder if this is just another chameleon act that I am putting on. A lot of times I hear people talk in meetings about trying to become the people God meant for them to be I like that but it takes a lot of praying and introspection to become that. I also believe that by doing the steps we break out of our old self. Have a great day and thanks for all who replied.

10-24-2012, 12:23 AM	#1 (permalink)
newby1961 Trudging that road. Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Seattle Wa Posts: 6,815 Blog Entries: 1	Big Book Quotes "More than most people, the alcoholic leads a double life. He is very much the actor. To the outer world he presents his stage character. This is the one he likes his fellows to see. He wants to enjoy a certain reputation, but knows in his heart he doesn't deserve it." ~ Alcoholics Anonymous 1st Edition Into Action pg 73 c Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, INC.

10-24-2012, 02:28 AM	#2 (permalink)
pipparina Member Join Date: Aug 2012 Location: NYC Posts: 1,226	Wow, it has been awhile since I've seen these few sentences. This was the feeling I had that someday, "they" were going to figure out I was a fraud. I heard in the rooms many others expressing the same fear. Took awhile to go away, that feeling of "being found out". And I don't mean about my drinking, but that I wasn't really who I said I was. I still wonder sometimes, at work, if they know what a joke I am. I still can't seem to understand that I actually know what I'm doing most of the time, and not just making it all up as I go along __________________ "The mind is its own place; it can make a hell of heaven or a heaven of hell" Milton

10-24-2012, 05:30 AM	#3 (permalink)
IndaMiricale Powerless over Alcohol Join Date: May 2011 Location: Trudging the Road to Happy Destiny! Posts: 4,020	Yes I dont miss the life of living 10 lifes. I filled that chameleon all to well for decades. Its a pleasure to have one life to tell today.. Have a wonderful day __________________ "The only real thing in life are dreams, which nature cant touch with decay." Bob Dylan "Each day,somewhere in the world ,recovery begins when one alcoholic talks with another alcoholic , sharing experience,strength and hope."

10-24-2012, 07:21 AM	#4 (permalink)
bbthumper Member Join Date: Jul 2012 Location: Cleveland, OH Posts: 1,139	Remember that awful feeling when one person or group of people with whom you acted one way was in the same place as another person or group with whom you acted another way? Trying to figure out how to act with both there at the same time? Sickening! So much energy spent on that foolishness. __________________ *~BBThumper* ~All Big Book Quotes from the 1st edition A man can no more diminish God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, 'darkness' on the walls of his cell. C. S. Lewis

10-24-2012, 04:27 PM	#5 (permalink)
CaiHong Member Join Date: Aug 2011 Posts: 1,741	I have been asking myself who am I really lately, the personality that I liked to identify with, kind, generous, easy going, witty isn't really who I am at all quite the opposite. I thought after one year of sobriety all would be well but more is being revealed and coming to terms with it is a challenge and its people here on SR and in AA seem to be the only ones that understand what is really going on and the importance of finding ones real self. CaiHong

10-25-2012, 12:15 AM	#6 (permalink)
newby1961 Trudging that road. Join Date: Nov 2010 Location: Seattle Wa Posts: 6,815 Blog Entries: 1	Some great responses from all. I have been sober almost 9 years and there are still some days that I feel like I still don't know who I really am? Or I wonder if this is just another chameleon act that I am putting on. A lot of times I hear people talk in meetings about trying to become the people God meant for them to be I like that but it takes a lot of praying and introspection to become that. I also believe that by doing the steps we break out of our old self. Have a great day and thanks for all who replied.

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