Absurd Actions and Ideas

[RobC420]

I've been reading a lot about step 11 lately. I always kinda wonder when I come across this quote:

Originally Posted by Big Book, 1st. edition, Into Action, Page 87

Being still inexperienced and having just made conscious contact with God, it is not probable that we are going to be inspired at all times. We might pay for this presumption in all sorts of absurd actions and ideas.

I always try to think of an absurd action or idea I had based off what I thought was God's will, but can never think of anything. I'd like to hear about some of your absurd actions or ideas. Hopefully they'll shed light on something I have done. Any takers?

[Justfor1]

At one point I honestly believed that God's will for me was to be a alcoholic/addict. I believed that I was going to die that way & that was my destiny. That was the hopeless state of mind & twisted thinking that alcoholism contributed to. Looking back, I believe that it was a big part of depression and mental illness as well.

[tomsteve]

any thought or action that i used to have/do when i was drinking and try to rationalize that it is a right thought/action while sober. anything selfish or self centered. but i only learned through practical experience.

[muvinon]

Any easy solution that required no effort on my part.....ah, it must have been meant to be!

Actually, it was just the first desperate opportunity out of a bad spot.

[Tommyh]

As I looked out at my home group from my pedistal,I was thinking I was the only sane one there

[Veritas1]

I always believed absurd actions meant drinking.

Not being inspired, encouraged...I do something absurd...I drink.

An absurd idea would be that sticking with beer would be okay.

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[newby1961]

My whole drinking life was filled with absurd ideas and even when I am in recovery and I don't feel like going to meetings or picking up the phone. Knowing all those actions are the sane thoughts that keep me in the sunlight of the spirit I still do the opposite and isolate.

I also think that the steps are in order for a reason and when I was in my 1st 90 days step 11 might as well been a foreign language. I needed to concentrate on my foundation and a relationship with my higher power.

[Db1105]

That I could take calculus, physics, chemistry, Geology and French my first semester full time in college. I went from genius to idiot in a matter of days.

[omegasupreme]

Originally Posted by Db1105

That I could take calculus, physics, chemistry, Geology and French my first semester full time in college. I went from genius to idiot in a matter of days.

I absolutely LOVE this...with a fulltime job, 200 mile/day commute, AA commitments, and being a father I attempted Calc II, Discrete, and a Digital Forensics course. Boy did I find some unmanageability. Dropped Calc II, D in Discrete and B in the DF course. I learned a lot that semester though.

During that same semester I got the absurd idea that I would save AA. Prior to that semester my sponsor had relapsed and I woke to that particular lineage's "method" being a cute, easier, softer workbook vs what the Big Book asks. So the crusade began to save our beloved fellowship. I wrapped the traditions around a baseball bat and went into meetings swinging. I was a zealot. I was on fire! Until my ego got too big saving AA. It's a hard job. I thought I was reporting factual information. My sponsor used another word, resentment.

[bbthumper]

That I could convince my wife to join alanon. Yikes.
That I could keep my first sponsee sober. Double yikes!

[omegasupreme]

Oh! And I bet no one in here has ever tried/done this...on multiple occasions I have tried to sponsor/get/keep sober whoever I was dating...I and use dating VERY loosely. One wasn't even interested in getting sober...I tried really hard to haul her to AA though, lmao.