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|10-18-2012, 01:02 PM||#2 (permalink)|
Join Date: Jul 2012
Location: Kent UK
One of my was complete and utter self hatred. I drank to get away from myself. I then hated myself for drinking and spiralled down and down until I could barely function on some levels. I could not relax, I could not sleep, I could not love or like. I just got by surviving not living.
I am what I think.
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When my dog winks at me, I always wink back in case it's some sort of code
|10-18-2012, 01:15 PM||#3 (permalink)|
Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: Here, Now
Mine was insomnia because afraid to sleep because of dreams
What the caterpillar calls the end, the rest of the world calls a butterfly ~ Lao Tsu
|10-18-2012, 01:28 PM||#5 (permalink)|
Join Date: Aug 2012
never knowing what would happen to me or what I would do after taking that first drink. I just never knew where/how I would end up.
"The mind is its own place; it can make a hell of heaven
or a heaven of hell" Milton
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|10-18-2012, 01:51 PM||#6 (permalink)|
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: eastern USA
Blog Entries: 31
All of it, but especially the self hatred. And the waking up wishing I were dead.
I'd rather live in my car with my dogs than live in a castle without them.
Dogs may not be our whole lives, but they make our lives whole.
Don't wait for the Last Judgement. It takes place every day. -Albert Camus
Find the good and praise it. - Alex Haley
|10-18-2012, 02:17 PM||#7 (permalink)|
Join Date: Jul 2011
Me. My brain.
Someday everything will all make sense.
For now, laugh at confusion, smile through tears,
& remind yourself that everything happens for a reason.
All Big Book quotes are from the first edition.
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|10-18-2012, 02:42 PM||#9 (permalink)|
Join Date: May 2004
Blog Entries: 10
My emotions and feelings ..... it made everything unmanageable.
Advice is like snow; the softer it falls the longer it dwells upon, and the deeper it sinks into the mind.
--Samuel T. Coleridg
|10-18-2012, 02:44 PM||#10 (permalink)|
Join Date: Jul 2012
Location: Cleveland, OH
~All Big Book Quotes from the 1st edition
A man can no more diminish God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word, 'darkness' on the walls of his cell.
C. S. Lewis
|10-18-2012, 07:40 PM||#12 (permalink)|
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: New Zealand
I was unable to manage my regular decisions not to drink. I could not manage to avoid the strange mental blank spot the always preceeded the first drink. Though I stopped frequently, i could not manage my life in a way to stay stopped.
It is in the trying that we succeed
All BB quotes from 1st Edition.
|10-19-2012, 02:22 AM||#13 (permalink)|
Join Date: May 2008
Location: Detroit, MI
"We were having trouble with personal relationships, we couldn't control our emotional natures, we were a prey to misery and depression, we couldn't make a living, we had a feeling of uselessness, we were full of fear, we were unhappy, we couldn't seem to be of real help to other people - was not a basic solution of these bedevilments more important than whether we should see newsreels of lunar flight?"
>>> If it makes sense - It ain't spiritual!
- All Big Book quotes are from first Edition -
|10-19-2012, 03:18 AM||#14 (permalink)|
Join Date: Jun 2012
NOTHING was manageable, but I'd say my emotions were the hardest to manage. I didn't know who I was, what I wanted, what I liked, what I disliked, I hated everyone and everything and then was loving life... everything was so up and down and I didn't know truly how I felt about anything because I was so unstable that my mind would do u-turns in seconds. But, yay! It's all gone now
|10-19-2012, 06:30 AM||#15 (permalink)|
Join Date: Apr 2012
Location: Houston Texas
I made a list for my step work, listing it all out. Ran 3/4 of a page, in fact.
I did not stop drinking until I could absolutely not juggle life anymore. I was completely and utterly defeated.
And I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt......there was worse to come.
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|10-19-2012, 07:15 AM||#16 (permalink)|
Join Date: Mar 2012
Blog Entries: 72
It was a good day if I managed to brush my teeth!
The mental obsession, physical compulsion and spiritual selfishness of addiction made my life unmanageable in every way.
Clean Date 08~20~12
|10-19-2012, 07:48 AM||#18 (permalink)|
Join Date: Oct 2007
Blog Entries: 11
Wow...great answers so far....mine would be unable to control my emotions, unable to control others, unable to control institutions, getting agitated over everything, frustrated when my manipulations didn't work.
|10-19-2012, 07:04 PM||#20 (permalink)|
Join Date: Mar 2012
Location: Down under
My current life is unmanageable: housework not done, behind on assignments, daughter has no routine etc. I have to get a job and don't know how I'm going to juggle that with parenting on my own. I couldn't manage working full-time even before motherhood. Wish I had time to go to AA but it will be a once per fortnight thing. They say that if you put sobriety first, life will eventually become more manageable, but how can you put it first when you are so busy surviving? I'm so scared that working will push me over the edge of unmanageability and trigger even more drinking. I hope this reminds people of how far they have come.
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