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DeepBreath2012 · 09-17-2012, 06:55 AM

I want to scream and cry. I just walked over 2 miles, in heels, to go to my FIRST AA mtg.

It's not the best place in the city either (I took a bus then walked).

The building is abandoned, I called the # of the "nursery" where it's supposed to be and it's out of service, called 411 and they have no listing, called local AA and got answering service to which she said, yes I have the myg listed and this schedule just came out a couple days ago.

I'm beside myself. I'm dripping in sweat and it took a LOT of courage and effort for me to take this step and this is what I get?!?! I'm so fu**** angry and discouraged.

BadCompany · 09-17-2012, 07:08 AM

I'm sorry that happened to you.

keltie · 09-17-2012, 07:11 AM

I'm SO sorry- AARGH! BUT it is very encouraging that you would go THAT far to go to your first meeting. I see a lot of hope there! Try again and don't let this discourage you. (HUGS)

Veritas1 · 09-17-2012, 07:38 AM

Sorry that happened. I have driven in the pouring rain to find an empty church as well. Turns out I read the schedule wrong.

I am not saying that is what happened in your case.

My sponsor would give me 10 minutes to get upset over a situation but then I had to move on.

She would say, "You can go get upset over ____ for 10 minutes, and then call me back."

I would call her back before 10, realizing to dwell 10 minutes on what I was mad about was silly.

Whatever we focus on grows.

Yes, what happened was a bummer...and we cannot stay there....

Keep seeking.

foodie1 · 09-17-2012, 07:41 AM

Sorry to hear that DB! You're a brave soul to walk that far in heels! Hope you find that darn meeting, all the best to you

tomsteve · 09-17-2012, 08:13 AM

welp, it does happen. i have planned a ride on my motorcycle with a meeting in mind. even looked on the web site. drove 3 hours( i take long rides) to find the meeting had moved, even though the web site was updated recently.
it is hard for the people updating the meeting lists online to get accurate information sometimes. it happpens. i personally am very greatful to see you goin to the lengths ya went to to get to a meeting. now, it is possible to call the local AA # ya got and ask for phone #'s of some people in recovery who can help you find a meeting and will more than likely pick you up for it even.

Sobersunshine · 09-17-2012, 08:20 AM

OMG! I cannot believe that happened. I hope this will be a funny story for you, later. Right now it totally sucks. I was so nervous about my first meeting, and if I had even the smallest little sign that maybe I shouldn't be there, I would've turned right around and gone home. Don't take this as a sign! Turn it into a positive, find a darn meeting, and maybe don't wear heels next time?

. Two miles I admire you girl!

todd6138 · 09-17-2012, 08:33 AM

I try and stay in the literature cause sometimes u and God and the program are all you have some days.. willingness keeps me sober some days

muvinon · 09-17-2012, 08:55 AM

You will laugh one day about this.......but just not today!

This is when "Keep coming back" is a really good saying.

And welcome to AA!

DeepBreath2012 · 09-17-2012, 09:44 AM

Thanks to all of you for the kind words.

This will NOT derail me. Just frustrating after weeks of getting up the courage and yes...the 2 mi walk. Lol

Thanks for the support and have a wonderful week. Strength to you all!!!

NewHouse2012 · 09-17-2012, 10:02 AM

I feel you hon. My first AA the time on schedule was posted wrong and I walked in to a meeting that was halfway through. It was quiet in the room and the doors slammed hard behind me and everyone looked up. I burned with fury too.

sugarbear1 · 09-17-2012, 03:23 PM

my higher power also has a great sense of humor!

Keep coming back, just get to another location for a meeting! Call first and see if a meeting has been established!!!

I've done the same thing as you....today I have over 16 months of sobriety!

CarolD · 09-17-2012, 03:37 PM

Sorry to know this happened and glad you got home safely.

CaiHong · 09-18-2012, 08:02 AM

Deepbreath,

It's great that you came here ad vented and it hasn't put you off getting to a meeting, good on you.

CaiHong

spryte · 09-18-2012, 09:50 AM

My first AA meeting was a disaster. Hang in there

It sounds like you are focused and want to get well. Good on you

Lily · 09-20-2012, 06:54 PM

I am sorry deepbreathe. I can remember when I traveled to San Diego a few yrs back and I went to a meeting and it was a dark church. I remember I was BUMMED!

I hope you found a meeting near you and that it was there.

ananda · 09-21-2012, 05:02 AM

Next time don't wear heels

09-17-2012, 06:55 AM	#1 (permalink)
DeepBreath2012 Member Join Date: Sep 2012 Location: New England Posts: 259	So disappointed I want to scream and cry. I just walked over 2 miles, in heels, to go to my FIRST AA mtg. It's not the best place in the city either (I took a bus then walked). The building is abandoned, I called the # of the "nursery" where it's supposed to be and it's out of service, called 411 and they have no listing, called local AA and got answering service to which she said, yes I have the myg listed and this schedule just came out a couple days ago. I'm beside myself. I'm dripping in sweat and it took a LOT of courage and effort for me to take this step and this is what I get?!?! I'm so fu**** angry and discouraged.

09-17-2012, 07:08 AM	#2 (permalink)
BadCompany Member Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: Kansas Posts: 790	I'm sorry that happened to you. __________________ All quotes are from the Alcoholics Anonymous.1st Edition "Lord, take me where you want me to go, let me meet who you want me to meet, tell me what you want me to say, and keep me out of your way." - Fr. Michal Judge.

09-17-2012, 07:38 AM	#4 (permalink)
Veritas1 Child of God Join Date: Nov 2010 Posts: 3,219	Sorry that happened. I have driven in the pouring rain to find an empty church as well. Turns out I read the schedule wrong. I am not saying that is what happened in your case. My sponsor would give me 10 minutes to get upset over a situation but then I had to move on. She would say, "You can go get upset over ____ for 10 minutes, and then call me back." I would call her back before 10, realizing to dwell 10 minutes on what I was mad about was silly. Whatever we focus on grows. Yes, what happened was a bummer...and we cannot stay there.... Keep seeking. __________________ AA quotes first edition

09-17-2012, 08:13 AM	#6 (permalink)
tomsteve Member Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: northern michigan. not the U.P. Posts: 3,109	welp, it does happen. i have planned a ride on my motorcycle with a meeting in mind. even looked on the web site. drove 3 hours( i take long rides) to find the meeting had moved, even though the web site was updated recently. it is hard for the people updating the meeting lists online to get accurate information sometimes. it happpens. i personally am very greatful to see you goin to the lengths ya went to to get to a meeting. now, it is possible to call the local AA # ya got and ask for phone #'s of some people in recovery who can help you find a meeting and will more than likely pick you up for it even. __________________ all big book quotes from 1st edition

09-17-2012, 08:20 AM	#7 (permalink)
Sobersunshine Member Join Date: Sep 2012 Location: Western Canada Posts: 339	OMG! I cannot believe that happened. I hope this will be a funny story for you, later. Right now it totally sucks. I was so nervous about my first meeting, and if I had even the smallest little sign that maybe I shouldn't be there, I would've turned right around and gone home. Don't take this as a sign! Turn it into a positive, find a darn meeting, and maybe don't wear heels next time?. Two miles I admire you girl! __________________ Dog is love. Determine that the thing can and shall be done then we shall find the way. Lincoln You ain't a cowboy if you ain't been bucked off.

09-17-2012, 07:11 AM	#3 (permalink)
keltie Member Join Date: Nov 2009 Location: california Posts: 320	I'm SO sorry- AARGH! BUT it is very encouraging that you would go THAT far to go to your first meeting. I see a lot of hope there! Try again and don't let this discourage you. (HUGS)

09-17-2012, 07:41 AM	#5 (permalink)
foodie1 Member Join Date: Aug 2011 Location: Oregon Posts: 826 Blog Entries: 28	Sorry to hear that DB! You're a brave soul to walk that far in heels! Hope you find that darn meeting, all the best to you

09-17-2012, 08:33 AM	#8 (permalink)
todd6138 Friend of Bill W. Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Huntington, WV Posts: 202	I try and stay in the literature cause sometimes u and God and the program are all you have some days.. willingness keeps me sober some days __________________ "You can eat an entire elephant one bite at a time."

09-17-2012, 08:55 AM	#9 (permalink)
muvinon Member Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: Houston Texas Posts: 543	You will laugh one day about this.......but just not today! This is when "Keep coming back" is a really good saying. And welcome to AA!

09-17-2012, 09:44 AM	#10 (permalink)
DeepBreath2012 Member Join Date: Sep 2012 Location: New England Posts: 259	Thanks to all of you for the kind words. This will NOT derail me. Just frustrating after weeks of getting up the courage and yes...the 2 mi walk. Lol Thanks for the support and have a wonderful week. Strength to you all!!!

09-17-2012, 10:02 AM	#11 (permalink)
NewHouse2012 Member Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: Keep Trying Posts: 366	I feel you hon. My first AA the time on schedule was posted wrong and I walked in to a meeting that was halfway through. It was quiet in the room and the doors slammed hard behind me and everyone looked up. I burned with fury too. __________________ "Any compulsion tries to justify itself" Alcohol Free: May 10th 2013

09-17-2012, 03:23 PM	#12 (permalink)
sugarbear1 ~sb Join Date: Jul 2011 Location: MD Posts: 9,867	my higher power also has a great sense of humor! Keep coming back, just get to another location for a meeting! Call first and see if a meeting has been established!!! I've done the same thing as you....today I have over 16 months of sobriety! __________________ Someday everything will all make sense. For now, laugh at confusion, smile through tears, & remind yourself that everything happens for a reason. All Big Book quotes are from the first edition. Linked with the permission of Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

09-17-2012, 03:37 PM	#13 (permalink)
CarolD Forward we go...side by side Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 37,601	Sorry to know this happened and glad you got home safely. __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

09-18-2012, 08:02 AM	#14 (permalink)
CaiHong Member Join Date: Aug 2011 Posts: 1,772	Deepbreath, It's great that you came here ad vented and it hasn't put you off getting to a meeting, good on you. CaiHong

09-18-2012, 09:50 AM	#15 (permalink)
spryte Member Join Date: Nov 2009 Posts: 832 Blog Entries: 58	My first AA meeting was a disaster. Hang in there It sounds like you are focused and want to get well. Good on you

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09-20-2012, 06:54 PM	#16 (permalink)
Lily Grateful Join Date: Oct 2007 Location: Midwest Posts: 2,504 Blog Entries: 11	I am sorry deepbreathe. I can remember when I traveled to San Diego a few yrs back and I went to a meeting and it was a dark church. I remember I was BUMMED! I hope you found a meeting near you and that it was there.

09-21-2012, 05:02 AM	#17 (permalink)
ananda Member Join Date: Nov 2007 Posts: 12,054 Blog Entries: 1	Next time don't wear heels __________________ Copyright © 2010 - 2010 Ananda You can't stop living just because it hurts a little - Ananda's Mom