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akfromwa · 09-12-2012, 05:47 PM

Hello all,

I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm trying again to get sober again. Today is my 3rd day. I've been around the halls for good portion of my adult life. I started coming around AA again about 2 months ago after a 5 year run. While my drinking isn't every day anymore I honestly can't say I'm sober with only 3 days but it's 3 days I didn't have last week. I actually reached out to an old AA friend Monday and explained how bad my drinking is effecting me. I'm sure your all aware of the old gamut.

I'm really what was once desribed to me as a "text book drunk". The Big Book of AA really fits me well. I no longer have the habit of drinking but the obsession. I get very intoxicated for many days, coming in and out of blackouts and pass outs. Just to start drinking again.

After my binges I get so horrible, fear grips me, DT's, sweets, my heart feels like It burst out of my chest, and all the not so nice effects of my drinking. Heck man you name it. Then I try and taper off with beer. Last time was a 5th a gin, 15 beers, with straight whiskey between the beers. I don't drink like that everyday but it's certainly not the exception. I hate the horror after coming out of a black out, it's so frightening! I don't really want to get into a drunk-a-log, just a brief description.

I guess today I feel OK. I get scared when I start to feel better sometimes, because that's when I'm prone to drink again, I'm about to call a friend who has been sober for over 20 years and go to a meeting with him.

By joining this group I want to have more contact with sober members. I guess you can't have to many sober hobbies. I want to find service jobs in my local AA as well.

I Just want to participate in this online forum. And perhaps get to know some of you.

Anyway just a friendly hello and introduction,

candi7 · 09-12-2012, 05:51 PM

Well congrats on the 3 days. The past will take care of it's self.. keep your feet firmly planted in the here and now today-living one day at a time and you will be just fine.. If I dwell on the future too much...My sponsor asks-Where are your feet right now ... And I tell her-I'm standing on them or on the floor and she says-good keep them there!

Mark75 · 09-12-2012, 05:52 PM

Welcome to SR... glad to have you. Keep posting!

phoenix · 09-12-2012, 06:24 PM

Hang in there.You are moving in the right direction and reaching out for help.At this point each day is a precious miracle...even when it feels like this -->

Help is here

phoenix aka Tinker

akfromwa · 09-12-2012, 10:15 PM

"If you're going through hell, keep going."

This quote from Winston Churchhill came to mind today

Anyways thanks all for your replies on my thread.

I got home from a meeting today. It was actually really good and felt...i guess you could say part of the group. I honestly can say I haven't felt that way in many years. There was even a new comer at the meeting.

***PaperDolls*** · 09-13-2012, 08:29 AM

Glad you're here ak.

Welcome!

CaiHong · 09-13-2012, 01:59 PM

Hi Ak and welcome

muvinon · 09-13-2012, 04:36 PM

It certainly sounds as though you're at that "jumping off" point.

When the ship is sinking, just jump for safety.

**Dee74** · 09-13-2012, 04:48 PM

Welcome to SR

D

akfromwa · 09-13-2012, 06:43 PM

Thanks everyone for posting.

Today started off pretty good then I started thinking about situation in my life I guess I'm resentful about.

Day 4 no alcohol!!!

phoenix · 09-14-2012, 06:37 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by akfromwa

Thanks everyone for posting.

Today started off pretty good then I started thinking about situation in my life I guess I'm resentful about.

Day 4 no alcohol!!!

Life is full of such situations...and yet I can't think of even one that would be improved by getting smashed...LOL

Sounds like you've figured that out too...congrats on Day 4

phoenix aka Tinker

CarolD · 09-14-2012, 08:10 AM

Welcome..

Good to know of your progress...

09-12-2012, 05:47 PM	#1 (permalink)
akfromwa Member Join Date: Sep 2012 Location: Washington Posts: 5	New to the board I have 3 days Hello all, I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm trying again to get sober again. Today is my 3rd day. I've been around the halls for good portion of my adult life. I started coming around AA again about 2 months ago after a 5 year run. While my drinking isn't every day anymore I honestly can't say I'm sober with only 3 days but it's 3 days I didn't have last week. I actually reached out to an old AA friend Monday and explained how bad my drinking is effecting me. I'm sure your all aware of the old gamut. I'm really what was once desribed to me as a "text book drunk". The Big Book of AA really fits me well. I no longer have the habit of drinking but the obsession. I get very intoxicated for many days, coming in and out of blackouts and pass outs. Just to start drinking again. After my binges I get so horrible, fear grips me, DT's, sweets, my heart feels like It burst out of my chest, and all the not so nice effects of my drinking. Heck man you name it. Then I try and taper off with beer. Last time was a 5th a gin, 15 beers, with straight whiskey between the beers. I don't drink like that everyday but it's certainly not the exception. I hate the horror after coming out of a black out, it's so frightening! I don't really want to get into a drunk-a-log, just a brief description. I guess today I feel OK. I get scared when I start to feel better sometimes, because that's when I'm prone to drink again, I'm about to call a friend who has been sober for over 20 years and go to a meeting with him. By joining this group I want to have more contact with sober members. I guess you can't have to many sober hobbies. I want to find service jobs in my local AA as well. I Just want to participate in this online forum. And perhaps get to know some of you. Anyway just a friendly hello and introduction,

09-12-2012, 06:24 PM	#4 (permalink)
phoenix Member Join Date: Jan 2003 Location: Dreaming Summer Posts: 818	Hang in there.You are moving in the right direction and reaching out for help.At this point each day is a precious miracle...even when it feels like this --> Help is here phoenix aka Tinker __________________ Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless. - Mother Teresa

09-13-2012, 08:29 AM	#6 (permalink)
*PaperDolls* Community Greeter Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 7,794 Blog Entries: 10	Glad you're here ak. Welcome! __________________ Advice is like snow; the softer it falls the longer it dwells upon, and the deeper it sinks into the mind. --Samuel T. Coleridg

09-13-2012, 04:48 PM	#9 (permalink)
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09-14-2012, 08:10 AM	#12 (permalink)
CarolD Forward we go...side by side Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Serene In Dixie Posts: 37,601	Welcome.. Good to know of your progress... __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

09-12-2012, 05:51 PM	#2 (permalink)
candi7 Member Join Date: Aug 2012 Location: Florida Posts: 316 Blog Entries: 5	Well congrats on the 3 days. The past will take care of it's self.. keep your feet firmly planted in the here and now today-living one day at a time and you will be just fine.. If I dwell on the future too much...My sponsor asks-Where are your feet right now ... And I tell her-I'm standing on them or on the floor and she says-good keep them there!

09-12-2012, 05:52 PM	#3 (permalink)
Mark75 Member Join Date: Oct 2008 Posts: 6,819	Welcome to SR... glad to have you. Keep posting!

09-12-2012, 10:15 PM	#5 (permalink)
akfromwa Member Join Date: Sep 2012 Location: Washington Posts: 5	"If you're going through hell, keep going." This quote from Winston Churchhill came to mind today Anyways thanks all for your replies on my thread. I got home from a meeting today. It was actually really good and felt...i guess you could say part of the group. I honestly can say I haven't felt that way in many years. There was even a new comer at the meeting.

09-13-2012, 01:59 PM	#7 (permalink)
CaiHong Member Join Date: Aug 2011 Posts: 1,750	Hi Ak and welcome

09-13-2012, 04:36 PM	#8 (permalink)
muvinon Member Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: Houston Texas Posts: 514	It certainly sounds as though you're at that "jumping off" point. When the ship is sinking, just jump for safety.

09-13-2012, 06:43 PM	#10 (permalink)
akfromwa Member Join Date: Sep 2012 Location: Washington Posts: 5	Thanks everyone for posting. Today started off pretty good then I started thinking about situation in my life I guess I'm resentful about. Day 4 no alcohol!!!

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