Memories resurfacing during a meeting. - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

Jeni26 · 08-27-2012, 02:16 PM

I've just returned from a meeting. It's bank holiday Monday here in Britain, which seemed to affect the attendance figures. There were only 3 of us there, one of whom was my sponsor. My heart sank because I thought it would mean I would have to share. I still find that difficult. It was the best meeting I've been to yet. I started talking, and without even thinking about it, really opened up about lots of things I haven't even given much thought to til tonight.
It was so strange. Memories came flooding back to me, triggered by what someone else had said. Talking about them, I felt a huge weight lifted from me. I hadn't even realised I'd been carrying this burden until I shared it. How could I have forgotten or placed such little significance on such life changing events? I drank for so many years to forget, but tonight they all resurfaced. I'm so thankful this happened in such a safe environment. It was like a series of flashbacks.
This really was a spiritual experience. One I'm unlikely to ever forget. Just wanted to share it with you all.

2granddaughters · 08-27-2012, 02:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Jeni26

I've just returned from a meeting. It's bank holiday Monday here in Britain, which seemed to affect the attendance figures. There were only 3 of us there, one of whom was my sponsor. My heart sank because I thought it would mean I would have to share. I still find that difficult. It was the best meeting I've been to yet. I started talking, and without even thinking about it, really opened up about lots of things I haven't even given much thought to til tonight.
It was so strange. Memories came flooding back to me, triggered by what someone else had said. Talking about them, I felt a huge weight lifted from me. I hadn't even realised I'd been carrying this burden until I shared it. How could I have forgotten or placed such little significance on such life changing events? I drank for so many years to forget, but tonight they all resurfaced. I'm so thankful this happened in such a safe environment. It was like a series of flashbacks.
This really was a spiritual experience. One I'm unlikely to ever forget. Just wanted to share it with you all.

That, my dear, is what it is all about !! You ain't see nothin' yet !!

All the best.

Bob R

DayTrader · 08-27-2012, 02:29 PM

Thanks for helping me re-live those same types of meetings from my past Jeni!

There's more to come...and yeah, it's usually preceded by fear - fear that it won't be good.

tomsteve · 08-27-2012, 02:29 PM

jeni, this, once again from ya, is awesome news!! i think you may have knowledge of what the 4th and 5th steps are gonna do for you,eh?

bjames · 08-27-2012, 02:29 PM

You sound exactly like me a month ago! Once I finally shared, I got so much out of it. Now I'm very disappointed if they run out of time and can't reach me.

candi7 · 08-27-2012, 02:29 PM

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Originally Posted by Jeni26

I've just returned from a meeting. It's bank holiday Monday here in Britain, which seemed to affect the attendance figures. There were only 3 of us there, one of whom was my sponsor. My heart sank because I thought it would mean I would have to share. I still find that difficult. It was the best meeting I've been to yet. I started talking, and without even thinking about it, really opened up about lots of things I haven't even given much thought to til tonight.
It was so strange. Memories came flooding back to me, triggered by what someone else had said. Talking about them, I felt a huge weight lifted from me. I hadn't even realised I'd been carrying this burden until I shared it. How could I have forgotten or placed such little significance on such life changing events? I drank for so many years to forget, but tonight they all resurfaced. I'm so thankful this happened in such a safe environment. It was like a series of flashbacks.
This really was a spiritual experience. One I'm unlikely to ever forget. Just wanted to share it with you all.

Glad you had a great one friend-you so deserve it! Meetings like that Make life sooo much better... I'm looking forward to my meeting tonight...

Jeni26 · 08-27-2012, 10:37 PM

Thanks guys. I was blown away by last night, maybe I'm finally learning to trust again. It feels awesome. 4th and 5th step..here I come. The fears still there, but think I'm just going to have to push through that. I need and want to do that now.

Kelltic · 08-28-2012, 05:09 AM

Congrats, Jeni! I'm so happy for you. There is nothing better than the feeling of a burden being lifted through the program. The real gift for me was not freedom from obsession with alcohol but freedom from the burden of guilt & shame..and the opportunity to have these amazing spiritual experiences.

08-27-2012, 02:16 PM	#1 (permalink)
Jeni26 Member Join Date: Mar 2012 Location: South East England Posts: 3,926	Memories resurfacing during a meeting. I've just returned from a meeting. It's bank holiday Monday here in Britain, which seemed to affect the attendance figures. There were only 3 of us there, one of whom was my sponsor. My heart sank because I thought it would mean I would have to share. I still find that difficult. It was the best meeting I've been to yet. I started talking, and without even thinking about it, really opened up about lots of things I haven't even given much thought to til tonight. It was so strange. Memories came flooding back to me, triggered by what someone else had said. Talking about them, I felt a huge weight lifted from me. I hadn't even realised I'd been carrying this burden until I shared it. How could I have forgotten or placed such little significance on such life changing events? I drank for so many years to forget, but tonight they all resurfaced. I'm so thankful this happened in such a safe environment. It was like a series of flashbacks. This really was a spiritual experience. One I'm unlikely to ever forget. Just wanted to share it with you all.

08-27-2012, 02:29 PM	#3 (permalink)
DayTrader 12-Step Recovered Alcoholic Join Date: May 2010 Posts: 4,672	Thanks for helping me re-live those same types of meetings from my past Jeni! There's more to come...and yeah, it's usually preceded by fear - fear that it won't be good. __________________ "We can't solve our problems using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them." - Albert Einstein /-all BB quotes-1st. Edition-\

08-27-2012, 02:29 PM	#4 (permalink)
tomsteve Member Join Date: Apr 2012 Location: northern michigan. not the U.P. Posts: 2,876	jeni, this, once again from ya, is awesome news!! i think you may have knowledge of what the 4th and 5th steps are gonna do for you,eh? __________________ all big book quotes from 1st edition

08-27-2012, 02:29 PM	#5 (permalink)
bjames Member Join Date: Aug 2012 Location: MA Posts: 271	You sound exactly like me a month ago! Once I finally shared, I got so much out of it. Now I'm very disappointed if they run out of time and can't reach me.

08-27-2012, 10:37 PM	#7 (permalink)
Jeni26 Member Join Date: Mar 2012 Location: South East England Posts: 3,926	Thanks guys. I was blown away by last night, maybe I'm finally learning to trust again. It feels awesome. 4th and 5th step..here I come. The fears still there, but think I'm just going to have to push through that. I need and want to do that now.

08-28-2012, 05:09 AM	#8 (permalink)
Kelltic Member Join Date: Jun 2012 Location: NY Posts: 117 Blog Entries: 2	Congrats, Jeni! I'm so happy for you. There is nothing better than the feeling of a burden being lifted through the program. The real gift for me was not freedom from obsession with alcohol but freedom from the burden of guilt & shame..and the opportunity to have these amazing spiritual experiences.

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