The Worst Thing Ever Becomes the Best thing Ever....

[barb dwyer]

hi!

I had one of those meetings today.
You know the kind I'm talking about ...
the ones where you leave thinking
"I'm so glad I wound up here."

I'm actually glad to know the people I've met in recovery.
It hit me pretty hard this evening in there.
I can't really discuss *what* someone talked about -
but it was the watching everyone rally around this person
and seeing that person take comfort from their shares;
that made me feel so very full in my heart,
it was almost unbearable, the gratitude.

Just made me stop and thank The Infinite
for casting me into the clutches of AA.
I was so broken.
So hopeless.
So empty.


Maybe every now and then,
the miracle of survival
is overshadowed
by the miracle of recovery.
And I'm sure it made the others wonder
why I was sitting there, grinning like an ape.



We hear it over and over, don't we?
People come in to AA
thinking it's the worst thing in the world
that could have happened to them.
To have to be in AA.

It's been the very Grace of God
that brought me there.
And I'm proud to know us.

AA has been the best thing
to ever happen to me.

just needed to share that.
Thanks for reading.

[findingout]

Thanks for sharing that experience. My higher power, as they say, "Never misses a meeting." Sometimes though, he's got the volume turned up to 11 when he speaks through the words and actions of the other people there.

I heard a guy do a talk last night and he was on the same page. He said he came into A.A viewing it as a kind of punishment but also feeling like he had really hit the end of everything. Five years later he knows it was the best thing that had happened in long time, an opportunity not a punishment.

[CAPTAINZING2000]

There is something insane in the membrane coming into AA. I recall how miserable I felt that first meeting. I recall thinking, how will I ever have any fun again if, I can no longer drink?
How unmanageable has life become and still hold onto the old ideas of being able to drink again?

The debt of gratitude I have to AA can only be paid forward to the next person coming into the AA program to ensue my own happiness.

[24hrsAday]

i have a great home group A.A. meeting that has made all the difference in my recovery.. i have friends there that i look forword to seeing! it works for me!

[Charmie]

barb,,im here to jump on your pink cloud this week! what a lovely post.has made me think.thank you my friend.the attitude of gratitude is a marvelous thing,,

[tommyk]

Yes... some of life's worst nightmares have led me to a life I could only dream about.

[CAPTAINZING2000]

If, we knew what was good for us, we'd of never drank and drugged!!

[IO Storm]

Thanks Barb...wonderful share!

[CarolD]

I do so appreciate joy posts......
Thanks Barb for sharing yours.