Daily Reflections

[CarolD]

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SURRENDERING SELF-WILL

Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.

TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 34

No matter how much one wishes to try, exactly how can one turn his own will and his own life over to the care of whatever God he thinks there is? In my search for the answer to this question, I became aware of the wisdom with which it was written: that this is a two-part Step.

I could see many times where I should have died, or at least been injured, during my previous style of living, and it never happened. Someone, or something, was looking after me. I choose to believe my life has always been in God's care. He alone controls the number of days I will be granted until physical death.

The matter of will (self-will or God's will) is the more difficult part of the Step for me. It is only when I have experienced enough emotional pain, through failed attempts to fix myself, that I become willing to surrender to God's will for my life. Surrender is like the calm after the storm. When my will is in line with God's will for me, there is peace within.




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[IO Storm]

The near misses..yes. So many. From infancy to the present, I count nine.

Most were in the "active" times...

And, like the writer..the matter of will is more difficult.

God has taken care of me..I shouldn't be, by logic..walking around today.

Still..turning my stubborn will over is difficult at times.

And yet..it is during the difficult times that a deeper surrender saves me.

Every time.