As Bill Sees It

[CarolD]

*~*~*~*~*^As Bill Sees It^*~*~*~*~*

Search for Motives

Some of us clung to the claim that when drinking we never hurt anybody but ourselves. Our families didn't suffer, because we always paid the bills and seldom drank at home. Our business associates didn't suffer, because we were usually on the job. Our reputations didn't suffer, because we were certain few knew of our drinking. Those who did would sometimes assure us that, after all, a lively bender was only a good man's fault. What real harm, therefore, had we done? No more, surely, than we could easily mend with a few casual apologies.
This attitude, of course, is the end result of purposeful forgetting. It is an attitude which can be changed only by a deep and honest search of our motives and actions.

TWELVE AND TWELVE, p. 79


Copyright 1967 Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.

[Astro]

Originally Posted by CarolD

Some of us clung to the claim that when drinking we never hurt anybody but ourselves. Our families didn't suffer, because we always paid the bills and seldom drank at home. Our business associates didn't suffer, because we were usually on the job. Our reputations didn't suffer, because we were certain few knew of our drinking.

As a high-functioning alcoholic, I believed these self-imposed lies for most of my life.

I'm grateful that God and the 12 Steps have freed me from the bondage of "purposeful forgetting".