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scaredykat · 02-11-2009, 10:41 AM

Well, I woke up feeling very depressed this morning. My chronic pain is really bad today. I've been hurting since last week. It makes it hard to keep up with posts on SR that i want to read and write on.

I will say that I'm not going to drink over this. I use to do that on a daily basis. I am grateful that AA has helped me get and stay sober through all this.

I'm feeling depressed and disappointed that I probably won't be able to go to the AA convention up in Syracuse, NY. this weekend. I was really looking forward to that. The car ride alone would be hard not to mention the hard folding chairs to sit in all day. Maybe I'll get lucky, it is still a few days away. Who knows. My home group is on Saturday nights if i don't make it. We have comfy couches at my group so i never miss my group. That's one reason i joined that group; plus it was my home group back in 1992 when i was in AA the first time.

I'm going to call one of my contacts this afternoon. She's actually my sponsor's sponser. She doesn't work either and lives with chronic pain. So i know I'm not alone.

Thanks for listening.

PaperDolls · 02-11-2009, 10:46 AM

I'm sorry you're in pain and depressed.

Sounds like you're doing the right thing. Call someone, go to a meeting.

Remember, One day at a Time. Don't look too far into the future!

for you.

Sugah · 02-11-2009, 11:40 AM

I'm sorry that you're not feeling well, but I'm happy to see you've reached out to others. My ego often dictates that I keep quiet when I'm in more pain than I can handle, so I tell on myself. Not only does it keep me from suffering in silence (read: feeling self-pity), but it gives someone else the gift of service--lending an ear or a hand, as the case might be.

Peace & Love,
Sugah

RufusACanal · 02-11-2009, 11:42 AM

As I read your post, I attempted to place myself in your shoes and I cannot today in respect to pain. Today, inspite of your difficulties, you have the gift of a New Life. I am grateful for the silver lining as you refer in this statement;

"I'm going to call one of my contacts this afternoon. She's actually my sponsor's sponser. She doesn't work either and lives with chronic pain. So i know I'm not alone."

No, you are not alone and you are in my thoughts and prayer today and the days to come. You will overcome, today.

Best to you, Ron

**CarolD** · 02-11-2009, 01:02 PM

Gentle

Prayers coming your way

stone · 02-11-2009, 01:02 PM

Barb.

Living with pain is hard.

stone · 02-11-2009, 01:10 PM

Double post

desertdonna · 02-11-2009, 01:18 PM

Hi Barb,

I'm so glad you reached out and posted. I'm so sorry you're in pain; it just makes simple pleasures that much more difficult to enjoy.

I do so hope you can get some relief before the weekend so that you can go to the convention, even if you take a soft cushion with you to sit on.

It's good that you're calling someone, too.

Healing thoughts coming your way!

Big hug,

Donna

lizw · 02-11-2009, 04:04 PM

Take it easy.

Yesterday I was thinking about how when I was diagnosed with MS an AA friend told me she knew someone who had MS and they had told her it was a daily thing to wake up and do like a body assesment of what is working/what is not and what hurts and what doesn't. I recall that I was rather horrified by this story. That was 2 years ago now and I suppose that is also how I live my life to a lesser or greater degree.

Over the last few days I have discovered this web site called 'Practising the Presence of God'. It is quite beautiful. And I wish I'd found it a while ago. It is a tad religous but I just filter it.

**Rowan** · 02-11-2009, 04:12 PM

I'm sorry that you're in a difficult place, Barb, and I hope you get to go to the convention. I know a lady that keeps a special chair in a room at the church where her home group meets. Could you pick up something inexpensive, or a cushion - as was suggested? Maybe get up and walk around periodically?

Regardless of what happens with the convention, I'm glad you took the time and effort to post where you are at today. I hope you get some comfort reading the replies. Gentle hugs going out to you and I hope the kittens got a clean bill of health at their first check-up.

***Impurrfect*** · 02-11-2009, 05:24 PM

(((Barb)))

I'm sorry you're in pain and feeling down. I'm glad you're reaching out, though, and you have good alternatives if you can't make it to the convention.

Take care of you, and watch the kitties play..that should bring a smile to your face

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

serenityqueen · 02-11-2009, 05:57 PM

I can understand how you're feeling, I also suffer from chronic pain issues and there are times when as much as I want to do something, my body just won't cooperate.

I'm going through some things right now too, but I just wanted to share what I keep telling myself. This Too Shall Pass and Thank God I have not felt the need or desire to pick up. For me, I also, hard as it may be at times, need to remember that there are others a lot worse off than me. At least we are able to make Meetings on most days, there are others who are permanately bed ridden due to illnesses.

A gentle but heartfelt hug,
Judy

Tazman53 · 02-12-2009, 04:51 AM

Wish I could help in some manner, a prayer will do, His will, will be done. If you get feeling better and make it to the convention, it will be because He wanted you there, but He may need you at your home group for a reason you may never know.

PaperDolls · 02-12-2009, 10:17 AM

How are you doing today Barb.
Thinking of you.

scaredykat · 02-12-2009, 10:29 AM

Thank you everyone for all your support. Tried to get on here yesterday and the site was down again.

I'm feeling a lot better today. Still hurting today, but not letting it get to me. I thinking of Gratitude today. That always helps. I just wrote on my other thread "We all have something to be grateful for. Even the smallest of things." All you got to do is watch the news and you'll found things to be grateful for in your own life. I think to myself at least i have arms and hands, some people don't have any.

This is getting toward the time of year when i get hurting more with the change in weather. And I know that. So I just have to accept that like i do with my recovery in AA.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Rowan

Could you pick up something inexpensive, or a cushion - as was suggested? Maybe get up and walk around periodically? Gentle hugs going out to you and I hope the kittens got a clean bill of health at their first check-up.

Yep, already have my pillow Ro. I take it with me to my local meetings when i need it and i get up to walk around when i need to. I had to do it last Friday at the speaker meeting actually.

When i first came back to AA i was worried what people would think of me. I was worried that they thought I was doing it for attention when I wasn't. My sponser told me long time ago not to worry what they thought. I have to take care of myself.

Oh, and the kittens are good. Mary has ear mites and we got medicine for her. We have to give it to all the cats. So that hasn't help my arms any wrestling with the big girls trying to give them the medicine too. LOL

scaredykat · 02-12-2009, 10:29 AM

Thank you everyone for all your support. Tried to get on here yesterday and the site was down again.

I'm feeling a lot better today. Still hurting today, but not letting it get to me. I thinking of Gratitude today. That always helps. I just wrote on my other thread "We all have something to be grateful for. Even the smallest of things." All you got to do is watch the news and you'll found things to be grateful for in your own life. I think to myself at least i have arms and hands, some people don't have any.

This is getting toward the time of year when i get hurting more with the change in weather. And I know that. So I just have to accept that like i do with my recovery in AA.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Rowan

Could you pick up something inexpensive, or a cushion - as was suggested? Maybe get up and walk around periodically? Gentle hugs going out to you and I hope the kittens got a clean bill of health at their first check-up.

Yep, already have my pillow Ro. I take it with me to my local meetings when i need it and i get up to walk around when i need to. I had to do it last Friday at the speaker meeting actually.

When i first came back to AA i was worried what people would think of me. I was worried that they thought I was doing it for attention when I wasn't. My sponser told me long time ago not to worry what they thought. I have to take care of myself.

Oh, and the kittens are good. Mary has ear mites and we got medicine for her. We have to give it to all the cats. So that hasn't help my arms any wrestling with the big girls trying to give them the medicine too. LOL

scaredykat · 02-12-2009, 10:38 AM

OK. Just got knocked out again. Checking to see if my post went through. Now it's doubled. LOL

02-11-2009, 10:41 AM	#1 (permalink)
scaredykat Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, N.Y. Posts: 4,357 Blog Entries: 5	Needing Encouragement- Depressed Well, I woke up feeling very depressed this morning. My chronic pain is really bad today. I've been hurting since last week. It makes it hard to keep up with posts on SR that i want to read and write on. I will say that I'm not going to drink over this. I use to do that on a daily basis. I am grateful that AA has helped me get and stay sober through all this. I'm feeling depressed and disappointed that I probably won't be able to go to the AA convention up in Syracuse, NY. this weekend. I was really looking forward to that. The car ride alone would be hard not to mention the hard folding chairs to sit in all day. Maybe I'll get lucky, it is still a few days away. Who knows. My home group is on Saturday nights if i don't make it. We have comfy couches at my group so i never miss my group. That's one reason i joined that group; plus it was my home group back in 1992 when i was in AA the first time. I'm going to call one of my contacts this afternoon. She's actually my sponsor's sponser. She doesn't work either and lives with chronic pain. So i know I'm not alone. Thanks for listening. __________________ One Day at a Time Sobriety Date: Jan 19, 2008

02-11-2009, 10:46 AM	#2 (permalink)
PaperDolls Miss Grumpy Pain in the Pants Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 5,486 Blog Entries: 10	I'm sorry you're in pain and depressed. Sounds like you're doing the right thing. Call someone, go to a meeting. Remember, One day at a Time. Don't look too far into the future! for you. __________________ Sober Date: 11.09.2008

02-11-2009, 11:40 AM	#3 (permalink)
Sugah Om, Aum, Ohm... 12 Many Champion! Blast Billiards Champion! Mah Jongg Solitaire Champion! mahjong Champion! Mini Pool 2 Champion! MiniPool Champion! Pool Jam Champion! Join Date: Jul 2005 Location: Punxsutawney/Pittsburgh Posts: 3,693	I'm sorry that you're not feeling well, but I'm happy to see you've reached out to others. My ego often dictates that I keep quiet when I'm in more pain than I can handle, so I tell on myself. Not only does it keep me from suffering in silence (read: feeling self-pity), but it gives someone else the gift of service--lending an ear or a hand, as the case might be. Peace & Love, Sugah __________________ There's a train leaving nightly called when all is said and done Keep me in your heart for awhile ~WZ ANS 01/29/86 - 08/04/08

02-11-2009, 11:42 AM	#4 (permalink)
RufusACanal Member Join Date: Aug 2007 Location: Birmingham, AL Posts: 1,872	As I read your post, I attempted to place myself in your shoes and I cannot today in respect to pain. Today, inspite of your difficulties, you have the gift of a New Life. I am grateful for the silver lining as you refer in this statement; "I'm going to call one of my contacts this afternoon. She's actually my sponsor's sponser. She doesn't work either and lives with chronic pain. So i know I'm not alone." No, you are not alone and you are in my thoughts and prayer today and the days to come. You will overcome, today. Best to you, Ron __________________ "Weather forecast for tonight: dark. Continued dark overnight, with widely scattered light by morning." George Carlin Excerpts from Original Manuscript of the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous

02-11-2009, 01:02 PM	#5 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 21,891	Gentle Prayers coming your way __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery! :

02-11-2009, 01:02 PM	#6 (permalink)
stone Member Moon Lander Champion! Shuffle The Penguin Champion! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,241	Barb. Living with pain is hard. __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

02-11-2009, 01:10 PM	#7 (permalink)
stone Member Moon Lander Champion! Shuffle The Penguin Champion! Join Date: Aug 2005 Location: UK Posts: 18,241	Double post __________________ . As from a fire aflame thousands of sparks come forth, even so from the Creator an infinity of beings have life and to him return again. -- Maitri Upanishads

02-11-2009, 01:18 PM	#8 (permalink)
desertdonna Member Join Date: Aug 2008 Location: Glitzville Posts: 335	Hi Barb, I'm so glad you reached out and posted. I'm so sorry you're in pain; it just makes simple pleasures that much more difficult to enjoy. I do so hope you can get some relief before the weekend so that you can go to the convention, even if you take a soft cushion with you to sit on. It's good that you're calling someone, too. Healing thoughts coming your way! Big hug, Donna __________________ Peace doesn't require two people; it requires only one. It has to be you. The problem begins and ends there. Byron Katie

02-11-2009, 04:04 PM	#9 (permalink)
lizw God's Kid Join Date: Jun 2008 Location: New Zealand Posts: 1,536	Take it easy. Yesterday I was thinking about how when I was diagnosed with MS an AA friend told me she knew someone who had MS and they had told her it was a daily thing to wake up and do like a body assesment of what is working/what is not and what hurts and what doesn't. I recall that I was rather horrified by this story. That was 2 years ago now and I suppose that is also how I live my life to a lesser or greater degree. Over the last few days I have discovered this web site called 'Practising the Presence of God'. It is quite beautiful. And I wish I'd found it a while ago. It is a tad religous but I just filter it. __________________ ....blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called the children of God.

02-11-2009, 04:12 PM	#10 (permalink)
Rowan Social Network Moderator Join Date: Dec 2003 Location: Ontario, Canada Posts: 11,976	I'm sorry that you're in a difficult place, Barb, and I hope you get to go to the convention. I know a lady that keeps a special chair in a room at the church where her home group meets. Could you pick up something inexpensive, or a cushion - as was suggested? Maybe get up and walk around periodically? Regardless of what happens with the convention, I'm glad you took the time and effort to post where you are at today. I hope you get some comfort reading the replies. Gentle hugs going out to you and I hope the kittens got a clean bill of health at their first check-up.

02-11-2009, 05:24 PM	#11 (permalink)
*Impurrfect* Community Greeter Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Atlanta Posts: 9,466	(((Barb))) I'm sorry you're in pain and feeling down. I'm glad you're reaching out, though, and you have good alternatives if you can't make it to the convention. Take care of you, and watch the kitties play..that should bring a smile to your face Hugs and prayers! Amy __________________ "I'm not where I want to be, but thank God I'm not where I used to be" - Joyce Meyer

02-11-2009, 05:57 PM	#12 (permalink)
serenityqueen Attitude of Gratitude Join Date: Sep 2007 Location: Dayton, Ohio Posts: 2,171	I can understand how you're feeling, I also suffer from chronic pain issues and there are times when as much as I want to do something, my body just won't cooperate. I'm going through some things right now too, but I just wanted to share what I keep telling myself. This Too Shall Pass and Thank God I have not felt the need or desire to pick up. For me, I also, hard as it may be at times, need to remember that there are others a lot worse off than me. At least we are able to make Meetings on most days, there are others who are permanately bed ridden due to illnesses. A gentle but heartfelt hug, Judy __________________ Doing a Happy Dance in Recovery!

02-12-2009, 04:51 AM	#13 (permalink)
Tazman53 Follow Directions! Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Fredericksburg, Va. Posts: 9,289	Wish I could help in some manner, a prayer will do, His will, will be done. If you get feeling better and make it to the convention, it will be because He wanted you there, but He may need you at your home group for a reason you may never know. __________________ All BB quotes are from the First Edition of the BB Follow directions! Sobriety date 18 Sept. 2006 Sober today thanks to AA

02-12-2009, 10:17 AM	#14 (permalink)
PaperDolls Miss Grumpy Pain in the Pants Join Date: May 2004 Location: Midwest Posts: 5,486 Blog Entries: 10	How are you doing today Barb. Thinking of you. __________________ Sober Date: 11.09.2008

02-12-2009, 10:38 AM	#17 (permalink)
scaredykat Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Upstate, N.Y. Posts: 4,357 Blog Entries: 5	OK. Just got knocked out again. Checking to see if my post went through. Now it's doubled. LOL __________________ One Day at a Time Sobriety Date: Jan 19, 2008

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