Change

[debs4321]

I heard something the other day that I am sure I have heard before, but just wasnt listening.

"There is no pain in change, only resistance to change."

Change for me today has been only a blessing.
Sometimes I can't see that until I have moved through it and made it through to the other side.
When I resist to change I am only telling God that haven't any faith in Him. And that the outcome he has planned for me isn't an opportunity for me to grow.

I look forward to opportunities of growth. Just sometimes my self-centeredness gets in the way and I feel my way is better.

Hmmmm.

Today, I will have faith that which ever path God puts in front of me, will lead me to the experience I need to have. And the outcome is really none of my business.

I hope this makes sense. LOL

Love,
Deb

Sobriety date : 01/06/2007

[Tazman53]

Deb that makes perfect sense to me. Change I must, or die I will!

[RufusACanal]

Good stuff. Change has been tremendously painful for me at times, though the result was worth the tears.

Best to you!

[tkdan]

I look forward to opportunities of growth. Just sometimes my self-centeredness gets in the way and I feel my way is better

I believe change is going to happen one way or another. One way, do I initiate change to serve my selfish interest-the result change for the worst. Another, do I allow my God to work through me to initiate change in me to serve the interest of all-the result change for the better. Whether I like it or not, whether it causes me pain or not if I allow change to come through God rather than from myself alone I can rest assured when it is over the best possible outcome will have resulted.

[debs4321]

I only "think" my way is better. I know my thinking can be very distorted at times.

that is where prayer and meditaion come in handy as a vital tool for my recovery.

I dont always get answers, or maybe the answers that I want. But, as long as I keep doing the next right thing as oppose to the next wrong thing. The result of the outcome will be possitive. At least the growth will arise in the end. And I can be at peace with it.

I am far from perfect and still very new to recovery. But, will continue to move forward. Making mistake along the way is normal. That also is a part of growth.

Change is good for me. It at least reminds me that I am growing and bettering (if that is a word) my self.

I remember when change wasnt part of my process. Staying in active addiction, thinking it was the answer to all my life long problem, not ever changing, surely would have killed me.

I have alot of growing and Changing to do yet.

[lizw]

If I don't change I stay the same...
For me the whole change thing seems to follow a process.
I notice (or learn) something about myself, that I don't like or that makes my life difficult/unmangeable.

Then I have two ways of dealing with this:

1. I pretend it doesn't exist and try to carry on with life as normal until it is a screaming issue in my life, and I am forced to change it.

2. I acknowledge it, talk about it with friends/sponsor then make an effort to do something differently.

I'd love to say I always do the latter, but this is not true. Me and the 1st one are quite good friends, at times.

It's the Joe and Charlie tapes that point out how many times change appears in the BB or a certain chapter isn't it?

[AW2486]

Originally Posted by lizw

It's the Joe and Charlie tapes that point out how many times change appears in the BB or a certain chapter isn't it?

Yes.. The Spiritual Experience index in the back of the book. They talk about how Bill used many different words and phrases that mean Change.

For me.. Change comes when I find the courage to face a fear .. take action on it no matter how frightened or uncomfortable it makes me feel.

Finding the Courage is the difficult part. Higher Power, Sponsor, and the AA fellowship are important support. But I still have to take the action.

[debs4321]

Yes, Change for today starts with facing fear. Fear is my number one offender. If it doesnt send me back out it will surely make my life miserable.

And hell, i didnt get sober to not enjoy life.

I also know there will be some rough times and there already has been some. As long as I keep God in my life and have that faith that no matter what happens ........I will be OK.
I already have faced numerous situations involving "fear" since I have been sober. I walked through them and came out the other side. WOW, that to me is change.


Things I would have never even attempted while drinking and using.

AA has taught me that God will always be by my side, holding my hand and guiding me through my life and to never be afraid.