Saturday, April 26th.....Step 3

[ken67]

That's the day.....

I've got all the issues ironed out at work, I will be working Saturday and Sunday then I have the rest of the week off if needed.

The Dr. wants to see me Monday and Tuesday....he says bad stuff will start happening around the 3rd day.
I'm ready, with God's help.

Thoughts and prayers please.

[Tazman53]

Ken you have them, I assume you have spoken to some AA folks about this, it never hurts to have those who have been there and done that around, you will actually be helping them as much as they will be able to help you through this. Day 3-4 were the worse for me, day 3 was when they had to start upping my meds to keep away the DTs and my bloodpressure was all over the place.

Do not try to tough it out, there is no need to gamble, if the shakes get bad let the doctor know, it is better to have the doc up the meds then put you in the emergency room. Keep the doc updated, do not sit and think "Well I will wait a little while, it will get better." It can go from the shakes to seizures with no real warning.

I am not trying to scare you, it is not that bad as long as the doctor knows what is going on and can keep you properly medicated.

[ken67]

I plan on talking to some AA folks this week.
I called the one I wrote about in the other thread....told him the date and he is going to introduce me to a few people.

I already have the med's from the Dr. and a blood pressure cuff.
He's given me very explicit instructions on when to take my BP, and when to up my med's.
He's only a mile away, and I won't hesitate to call if needed.

My head is messing with me though....I'm scared to death, and the last few days, I'm drinking a little more, trying to cram it all in before Saturday.
I don't know what's worse right now, the mind games or the fear of withdrawal.

[Cathy31]

Just keep going...I too was scared...just STICK to the plan and remember alcohol kills...you don't want to kill yourself in the process!
Cathy31
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[Tazman53]

Ken being scared is normal, I was scared crapless before I went into detox!!!

What I was scared of the most was sobriety!!!!

I had not functioned as a sober person for so many years I did not know how to do it!!!

The folks in AA and the steps led me to find my HP whom I call God.

The folks in AA, God, and the steps have shown me how to live life on lifes terms one day at a time sober and free!!!

I was far more scared of after detox then I was of detox!

For me the mind games were far worse then detox or reality, the Beast (My alcoholism) kept giving me every excuse and fear under the sun to not even bother with detox, just total BS like "I will be wasting my time going through detox because I am going to fail.", "My drinking really is not that bad as long as I control it!!!".

Here was the best one "What if I die detoxing?", in reality a slow alcoholic death makes dying from detox seem like a walk in the park and if I was being medically detoxed the chances were pretty slim I would die from it.

Once I started to actually detox it was more like being in a fog, there was no pain at all, this was due to being medically detoxed. Heck I am not sure what all they gave me, but I had no real fears once I got started.

Just keep in mind that alcoholism KILLS and usually before it kills one, it makes sure you suffer through the lose of everything you hold dear in life including ones very soul.

[CarolD]

You stick with the plan Ken
it's the smartest thing to do.

Hugs and Prayers coming your way

[ken67]

1-1/2 more days......

[CarolD]

You may not feel well enough to work
while you de tox.
So don't be too hard on yourself
if working proves ijmpossible.


Have you read this?
Sorry...I don't remember.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html (Quitting..What to expect ..What we did)

[ken67]

Yes, I've read it.
I have all next week off if needed.

[Tazman53]

Ken tomorrow is the first day of a great new life!!! It will be tough at first, just know that it will all be worth it! I will be very interested to see if you will be posting.

You know maybe you could start a thread tonight and use it to keep track of what you are going through in your journey, it could benefit you and others.

[ken67]

Taz,
I will be posting....not sure if I should start a thread here or in the Newcomer forum though.
I'm more comfortable here, as the Program is my guidance.
What do you think?

[barb dwyer]

Ken -

I'm so glad to see you moving forward - *thoughts & prayers*

[Cathy31]

I think - if I may - keep doing what you doing keep going forward keep the program at your centre...having said that your ExperienceStrengthandHope could and I believe would be very encouraging for a newcomer...

Keep going!
Cathy31
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[Tazman53]

Ken I hope all is going as well as can be expected, sorry I didn't answer earlier, but I only post while I am at work.

I see no problem with you posting your progress here, but as Cathy said the newcomers may benefit from you using the program right from the beginning.