I went last nigth

[LegalLady]

This one was not bad. It just happend to be a big book meeting. They read it around the table. I didn't like reading out loud but I did it anyway. Anyway, there wasn't a lot of people there and I just told them I was gonna die. I've cried before but this time a lady who is sober for 25 years gave me her number and told me to call. Then she said to go to the womens meeting tonight that started at 5:30. I said I couldn't get there till 6:00 because of my job. She said So what. I said I'll be late, she said so what? I said every one will stare at me, she said so what. The one of the guys said. Who cares if you walk in at the last 5 minutes. YOu do this for you. Haven't you figured that out yet. So, I'm gonna go in late tonight. I'll feel stupid, but that's what she said to do. I liked her. I did read Chapter 5. I've read it before and had highlights in it. It depressed me cause it showed me how I failed with all my highlights the last time, but I'm still gonna do it. I liked her 25 years sober. She was neat.

[miss communicat]

Originally Posted by LegalLady

This one was not bad. It just happend to be a big book meeting. They read it around the table. I didn't like reading out loud but I did it anyway. Anyway, there wasn't a lot of people there and I just told them I was gonna die. I've cried before but this time a lady who is sober for 25 years gave me her number and told me to call. Then she said to go to the womens meeting tonight that started at 5:30. I said I couldn't get there till 6:00 because of my job. She said So what. I said I'll be late, she said so what? I said every one will stare at me, she said so what. The one of the guys said. Who cares if you walk in at the last 5 minutes. YOu do this for you. Haven't you figured that out yet. So, I'm gonna go in late tonight. I'll feel stupid, but that's what she said to do. I liked her. I did read Chapter 5. I've read it before and had highlights in it. It depressed me cause it showed me how I failed with all my highlights the last time, but I'm still gonna do it. I liked her 25 years sober. She was neat.

way to go, LegalLady! Women's meetings are a great place to listen to women in sobriety. You might make a connection with someone who can sponsor you.

You mentioned yesterday that if you drink you are going to die. It, going to any length to NOT drink, sounds very much like a priority to me. I'd reconsider putting work ahead of sobriety, or relationships, or social commitments or anything else for that matter, if it were me.

I needed to do that for my own life. Just a suggestion.

[That Dude]

Hey,
Congrats on the meeting, I know reading out loud is scary for me. I am intimadated when I go to meetings, I sometimes think everyone else know more than me, and that makes me feel less than. But I am not, I am there just to stay sober, like everyone else. Know one cares if you are late. I used to go to partys and bars late all the time. I would go to work late, pay bills late, and family gatherings late. When I was drinking I did everything late, or not at all. There is one thing I know, If I don't go to AA I will definetly drink. Going late is still going, Sometimes the best meetings are after the scheduled meetings anyway. Maybe stay for an extra 30 minutes and talk.

Have a blessed day, and just don't drink.

Thanks,
Dude

[Tazman53]

LegalLady highlighting is for you and you alone. The more I read the BB the more I see things I didn't notice before! My sponsor has 19 years and says he still finds new things in the BB and he has read it 100's of times.

When you get to any meeting does not matter, getting there is what matters! The best part of most meetings is after the meeting anyhow! Some how I bet the lady with 25 years gave you her number after the meeting.

They are right, you are doing this for you, if you are doing it for someone else.... well it usually doen't work.

Hold your head high, you are doing what you need to do for you!!!

The hardest thing I had to do was follow suggestions!!! Once alcohol had me broke down furth enough I surrendered and started to follow suggestions from other alcoholics who were sober and knew how to stay that way and be happy doing it.

[Rowan]

LL,

I'm glad to hear that you connected with another woman at the meeting, and that you are going to a women's meeting tonight. My home group is for women, and I've made invaluable connections there.

I understand the fear of arriving late and being stared at, because I feel that way too sometimes, but I agree that it's best to go anyway. Walk through the fear and it will seem less daunting next time.

Let us know how it goes at the meeting.

[29a]

Someone told me once your never late for an aa meeting, your always right on time. I'm shy by nature. It felt like everyone was always watching me, I sat in meetings so terrified that I would have to speak that I wouldn't hear what was being said. The steps can get you through all that.
If you don't want to read, just say, hi I'm x I'm an alcoholic, I'm just going to listen tonight thanks.
no one cares, most the people there have felt exactly how you do.
i promise it gets better, I now enjoy sharing in meetings, even though my voice is still shaky half the time, I actually look forward to it.

I'm proud of you for working through your fears, from someone who know's who what your going through.

[RufusACanal]

What an excellent start! You made my day Legal Lady....

[CAPTAINZING2000]

Originally Posted by LegalLady

This one was not bad. It just happend to be a big book meeting. They read it around the table. I didn't like reading out loud but I did it anyway. Anyway, there wasn't a lot of people there and I just told them I was gonna die. I've cried before but this time a lady who is sober for 25 years gave me her number and told me to call. Then she said to go to the womens meeting tonight that started at 5:30. I said I couldn't get there till 6:00 because of my job. She said So what. I said I'll be late, she said so what? I said every one will stare at me, she said so what. The one of the guys said. Who cares if you walk in at the last 5 minutes. YOu do this for you. Haven't you figured that out yet. So, I'm gonna go in late tonight. I'll feel stupid, but that's what she said to do. I liked her. I did read Chapter 5. I've read it before and had highlights in it. It depressed me cause it showed me how I failed with all my highlights the last time, but I'm still gonna do it. I liked her 25 years sober. She was neat.

The only meeting were late for is our first one.


We also say at our meetings you're not late if, you get there for the Lord's Prayer.


I hope, the meeting helps you out

[nandm]

Then she said to go to the womens meeting tonight that started at 5:30. I said I couldn't get there till 6:00 because of my job. She said So what. I said I'll be late, she said so what? I said every one will stare at me, she said so what. The one of the guys said. Who cares if you walk in at the last 5 minutes. YOu do this for you. Haven't you figured that out yet. So, I'm gonna go in late tonight. I'll feel stupid, but that's what she said to do.

Reminds me of the saying "what others think of me is none of my business." So don't worry about what others may think, go and take care of you. If they are working their program they will not think much of you being late anyway unless of course you were to come in yelling, jumping around and being in general obnoxious but somehow I don't picture you doing that.... :rof

Enjoy your meeting, glad to hear you found someone to provide you guideance.

[NOMOMERLOTMAMMA]

Good for you LL!!!

[LegalLady]

Nothing

[Rowan]

Time to be kinder to yourself, LL. You're a wonderful person. Well done on 3 days

[miss communicat]

:ghug2 3 days is HUGE!!!

They are some of the hardest days you will go through. Keep up the work!

[Signal30]

I had a simular conversation with a guy when I first started going to meetings. He gave me his number. A few days later I called him, we talked some more and then I started to open up and listen.

That guy I met, I know as my sponsor.


Tom