Fifth Step Completed ... - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information

barb dwyer · 05-31-2007, 01:09 AM

wooHOO!

Went to my sponsor's ... she'd made dinner, we had a little prayer session thing (she's also part Nat.Amer) and settled down to 'business'. This was around 4:30pm. I got home around midnight.

It took quite a while.
She was my sponsor back when I was in AA the first time, so we've got some 'mileage' between us. She told me I was her first sponsee in almost five years to complete the 5th. It took HOURS because we talked so long about everything. Much sharing and caring, (and don't forget the dinner) and intimate conversation about things I've never discussed with anyone before.

Thing sticking with me right now is -

I'm doing this for real. I don't know that I've done ANYTHING in this life 'for real' without skipping something, fidging, or just plain cheating before.
I want this.
And I want it honestly.

I don't want the life I've always had any more.
And I'm willing to go to any length to get it.

Thanks everyone for your messages and prayers!

**Peter** · 05-31-2007, 06:27 AM

Well done barb. I happy for you. I like to believe that the 4/5 Steps are the points where the separation between alcoholic/recovering alcoholic begins.

citychick · 05-31-2007, 06:44 AM

when i first came to AA, I asked God..."Please...let me get this"

really happy for you, barb.

parentrecovers · 05-31-2007, 07:08 AM

i'm very happy for you today, barb. k

**CarolD** · 05-31-2007, 07:35 AM

Fantastic!!

Tazman53 · 05-31-2007, 09:18 AM

Congrats Barb, the promises after the 5th are so true aren't they.

fraankie · 05-31-2007, 06:11 PM

well done
a star for you

oh, oh
now it's time to get serious as in steps 6 and 7

you left out the best part
what did she make for dinner??

best
fraankie

GlassPrisoner · 05-31-2007, 08:17 PM

Awesome !!!!! Moving right along.

6 and 7 went fast for me. Like, and hour aftermy 5th, and by myself (Per my sponsors suggestion). I sat quietly for an hour reflecting on what had happened, pulled the Big Book of of the shelf, was confident that I had worked the previous steps and had held nothing back........

barb dwyer · 05-31-2007, 09:53 PM

Fraankie wrote:

Quote:

you left out the best part
what did she make for dinner??

A very traditional Nat. Amer. dinner, I'm told - LASAGNA!

lol

with a huge salad ...

GP -

I did that, too. An hour going over the twelve, my notes, meditating ... yeah.

And you know what?

Things .. ARE different.
I can't describe it yet .. they're just .. different.

lanie67 · 06-01-2007, 12:21 AM

wow, I can identify with this:

"I'm doing this for real. I don't know that I've done ANYTHING in this life 'for real' without skipping something, fidging, or just plain cheating before.
I want this.
And I want it honestly."

I know exactly what that feels like. Glad to hear it went well for you...that is wonderful to hear and I am happy for you, it brings back memories of my own.

fraankie · 06-22-2007, 12:43 PM

Things .. ARE different.
I can't describe it yet .. they're just .. different

sorry, lost your thread
but
lasagna
as in,
it took a hubdred years of drinking
and
what,
i don't know your sobriety date,
5 years in AA
to have a lasagna dinner
boy, you have a lot to be grateful for
as in,
lasAAgna

oh, what's different is
you now have the opportunity to be the person you always wanted to be
without all the baggage

Joi · 06-22-2007, 12:51 PM

Go Barb! It's ya birthday, we gonna paaarty like it's ya birthday! I'm thrilled for you, girl!

fraankie · 06-22-2007, 12:59 PM

"...........Things .. ARE different.
I can't describe it yet .. they're just .. different........"

yeah
me, too
what a sense of relief
all that baggage, like, gone
a sort of
"you carry with you no more"

http://allpoetry.com/poem/2056315

congrats, again

best
fraankie

barb dwyer · 06-23-2007, 03:43 AM

Quote:

what a sense of relief
all that baggage, like, gone
a sort of
"you carry with you no more"

I was surprised to see this bumped!

Fraankie -

yeah, twenty some days into this ...
I'm noticing when 'something' comes up
(and it's pretty regular)
if I start reacting the same 'old' way ...
my whole inner system goes off.
Like an alarm or something.

It's like I HAVE to do something/anything different.

LIke if something's bothering me,
I HAVE to say something about it,
even if it's just to acknowledge something is going on.
I never did that before.
I think I'm fairly clumsy at it, but am trying.

ps -

the lasagna was great.

Rusty Zipper · 06-23-2007, 05:50 AM

BD

Quote:

even if it's just to acknowledge something is going on.

yep, used to self medicate it all before...
the reality of the clear, somewhat level headed mind...

good for you BD

all good wishes...

xxoo, rz

05-31-2007, 01:09 AM	#1 (permalink)
barb dwyer same planet...different world Join Date: Sep 2006 Location: butte mt Posts: 7,142 Blog Entries: 3	Fifth Step Completed ... wooHOO! Went to my sponsor's ... she'd made dinner, we had a little prayer session thing (she's also part Nat.Amer) and settled down to 'business'. This was around 4:30pm. I got home around midnight. It took quite a while. She was my sponsor back when I was in AA the first time, so we've got some 'mileage' between us. She told me I was her first sponsee in almost five years to complete the 5th. It took HOURS because we talked so long about everything. Much sharing and caring, (and don't forget the dinner) and intimate conversation about things I've never discussed with anyone before. Thing sticking with me right now is - I'm doing this for real. I don't know that I've done ANYTHING in this life 'for real' without skipping something, fidging, or just plain cheating before. I want this. And I want it honestly. I don't want the life I've always had any more. And I'm willing to go to any length to get it. Thanks everyone for your messages and prayers! __________________ When I changed the way I looked at things, the things I looked at changed.

05-31-2007, 07:35 AM	#5 (permalink)
CarolD Forum Leader Join Date: Jun 2002 Location: Dallas, Ga. USA Posts: 16,037	Fantastic!! __________________ Each Day Sober Is A Victory!! Joy In AA Recovery!

05-31-2007, 09:18 AM	#6 (permalink)
Tazman53 Follow Directions! Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Fredericksburg, Va. Posts: 7,344	Congrats Barb, the promises after the 5th are so true aren't they. __________________ All BB quotes are from the First Edition of the BB Follow directions! Sobriety date 18 Sept. 2006 Sober today thanks to AA

05-31-2007, 08:17 PM	#8 (permalink)
GlassPrisoner Member Join Date: Nov 2006 Location: Murrieta, Ca Posts: 2,685	Awesome !!!!! Moving right along. 6 and 7 went fast for me. Like, and hour aftermy 5th, and by myself (Per my sponsors suggestion). I sat quietly for an hour reflecting on what had happened, pulled the Big Book of of the shelf, was confident that I had worked the previous steps and had held nothing back........ __________________ Life Happens

06-01-2007, 12:21 AM	#10 (permalink)
lanie67 Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: south east Posts: 216	wow, I can identify with this: "I'm doing this for real. I don't know that I've done ANYTHING in this life 'for real' without skipping something, fidging, or just plain cheating before. I want this. And I want it honestly." I know exactly what that feels like. Glad to hear it went well for you...that is wonderful to hear and I am happy for you, it brings back memories of my own. __________________ My head will tell me anything about you it can to get you out of my life so that you can't help me. Bob E.

05-31-2007, 06:27 AM	#2 (permalink)
Peter Moderator Join Date: Aug 2002 Location: Leaving Sparta Posts: 2,662	Well done barb. I happy for you. I like to believe that the 4/5 Steps are the points where the separation between alcoholic/recovering alcoholic begins.

05-31-2007, 06:44 AM	#3 (permalink)
citychick Member Join Date: Apr 2007 Location: The Emerald City Posts: 2,391	when i first came to AA, I asked God..."Please...let me get this" really happy for you, barb.

05-31-2007, 07:08 AM	#4 (permalink)
parentrecovers to dee or not to dee Join Date: Oct 2006 Location: USA Posts: 12,683	i'm very happy for you today, barb. k

05-31-2007, 06:11 PM	#7 (permalink)
fraankie Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: brooklyn, new york Posts: 1,402	well done a star for you oh, oh now it's time to get serious as in steps 6 and 7 you left out the best part what did she make for dinner?? best fraankie

06-22-2007, 12:43 PM	#11 (permalink)
fraankie Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: brooklyn, new york Posts: 1,402	Things .. ARE different. I can't describe it yet .. they're just .. different sorry, lost your thread but lasagna as in, it took a hubdred years of drinking and what, i don't know your sobriety date, 5 years in AA to have a lasagna dinner boy, you have a lot to be grateful for as in, lasAAgna oh, what's different is you now have the opportunity to be the person you always wanted to be without all the baggage

06-22-2007, 12:51 PM	#12 (permalink)
Joi Member Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: Texas Posts: 76	Go Barb! It's ya birthday, we gonna paaarty like it's ya birthday! I'm thrilled for you, girl!

06-22-2007, 12:59 PM	#13 (permalink)
fraankie Member Join Date: May 2005 Location: brooklyn, new york Posts: 1,402	"...........Things .. ARE different. I can't describe it yet .. they're just .. different........" yeah me, too what a sense of relief all that baggage, like, gone a sort of "you carry with you no more" http://allpoetry.com/poem/2056315 congrats, again best fraankie

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