TOPIC: Beaten - Powerlessness - Admitting Defeat

[aasharon90]

Step One: We admitted we were
powerless over alcohol – that our
lives had become unmanageable.


"Who cares to admit complete
defeat? Practically no one, of
course. Every natural instinct
cries out against the idea of a
personal powerlessness. It is
truly awful to admit that, glass
in hand, we have warped our
minds into such an obsession
for destructive drinking that
only an act of Providence can
remove it from us."


Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.

By the Grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I havent had
a drink of alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that Im truely grateful.


After countless attempts to
stop drinking and an attempt
to end my life I reached the
bottom of my drinking career
beaten down. Driven to rehab
in the back of a police car I
entered recovery for alcoholism
emmediately pleading guilty to
being powerless over alcohol
and my life was definitely
unmanageable.

It was only admitting utter
defeat that i began my long
road of recovery turning my
will and life over to the care
of my HP as i understand Him.

Today... a few yrs sober, I
am grateful for the knowlegde
and wisdom Ive picked up along
the way....for if it had not been
16 yrs ago admitting complete
defeat I surely wouldnt be
here today sharing with u guys.

Thanks for letting me share.

[Nuudawn]

I was so emotionally spent in that moment of defeat...surrender was truly my only answer. I felt abandoned by everything I ever held onto...my outgrown belief system. I simply HAD to try another way.

[chip]

For me, drinking is like getting in a fight with an opponet who is much tougher, stronger, and meaner than I.

Alcohol beats me everytime. I may have a round where I get some good punches in, but I always end up down on the mat.

Everytime I try to stand back up and fight, it puts me down.

This time, I've decided to stay down. I admit utter defeat. I cannot fight or be beaten up anymore. I've turned my alcohol problem over to my God, and he can protect me from the bully of alcohol.

It's been 1 year clean and sober for me, but the smell of my own blood is still fresh. I will never forget where I came from. It is by the grace of God that I am sober.
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