Hi there - I know, I know and it hurts so bad...Right now I am OK...I have had Bi Polar (Mostly Severe Depression) for 10 yrs now and used to feel that way all the time - so afraid to tell anyone my crzy thoughts, but guess what...I found someone I could really trust...A Sponsor in AA finally, but a counsellor or someone at a church - do you have someone you can trust ???
Anyway - what I discovered was that once I told her how I felt - I was free of it...the danger of me acting on it disappeared ..I have never actually acted on any of the impulses..but they scared me to death (ha ha)[black humour]
If you don't have anyone there to speak with...Please always come here to SR..there are many people who identify and have been there..Here is where you can say anything you want and no one thinks you're crazy, we are not judged here, we are on a journey of recovery TOGETHER !!!
you can private message me anytime...xoxo Janni
