| Suicidal Ideation
Most of the time I'm a very confident, happy person who genuinely likes herself and understands other people on a deep level.
However, sometimes, for no apparent reason whatsoever, I decide that it's best if I kill myself. I get extremely depressed and think of using hard drugs and committing suicide, and it takes several hours for these thoughts and feelings to go away. I don't talk to anyone when I feel like this ... no one ... because I know from experience that it makes things worse, in addition to giving them ammo to use against me in the future (labelling me "crazy" and whatnot). I just keep it to myself, get over it eventually, and move on.
What I'm wondering is, is this normal? Do most people have moments of intense suicidal despair that they don't tell people about? I know that people are usually pretty fake, I'm not naive, but I'm not sure how many people are hiding similar feelings like these.
Anyway, just throwing this out there ....
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