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Thank you for your supportive replies...Oh - where do I start...I really haven't been able to start on any therapy for the deep stuff..I had to get my emotions under control..Finally found a great phsychiatrist who minimized meds, but still can't get my rapid cycling under control, but I have grown up a lot !! I have a very strong AA Program which suffers (spiritually) whenever I get depressed..Thank God I don't go Really manic - just workaholism or hyperness...I found a wonderful therapist who said I had such severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder that she didn't want to dig yet - just teach me coping mechanisms...but I can't afford to go right now...
I have myself in a pickle..My ex-fiance had a severe stroke 3 yrs ago and I lived with him for the 1st 2 yrs until I almost cracked up..he got self sufficient enough to live alone and I moved out - when caring for him I can't work (selling real-estate)..I detached really well and then his health took a turn for the worse again and I got hooked again..He lost his speach in the stroke and I am the only one who can understand him and do all his medical advocacy..He has a sister that doesn't help at all..She nursed her husband to death with ALS - so I guess I understand...Anyway - this is not a sob story - my pickle is that because I can't work - he has been supporting me and the debt is accumulating and my health is deteriorating and I know I have to walk away...I know God will take care of him - But I don't want to abandon him...
oh - so much typing..I'll stop here for now
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