[Nevyn]

Thanks all. I am doing OK. I decided not to make the trip after all. I guess it is good that I know my own patterns well enough not to trust myself, when you recognize your patterns you can avoid trouble. It does feel like a cop out not to meet it head on but better to do that than get loaded again I reckon.

The cravings have not subsided. I have been using Nyquil to sleep, probably because I have been drinking way too much coffee. I had a freaky thought today as I was using my machine to make coffee. There I had the basket, and milk jug and spoons... all this paraphernalia, much like what I got rid of not so long ago. Almost like I need this ritual?

Talk about a habit.