hiya my SR friends, am looking for some feedback.
well into my third year of recovery, wow, who woud'a?...
this morn'n standing outside on a deck in the woods of the house i'm dog'y sit'n for...owners had to take off in a hurry, yes, another death from drinking!... {all channel news from Pompano Beach if like to know details}
i was watching their two li'l pooch's and looking at them in a way that blasted me into a space i have been before, just never took it any further.
feelings, and feelings of sometimes coldness, kinda of being hardend, almost emotionless. i do know when i was active, and many, many years of it, i would take my emotions to the limit, way over the top... at times, even searching out drama.
i came to feeling this way after the death of my loved one. oh how i miss her.
am i realy being cold with my feelings towards life, situations, death. or is this the growing up, the maturity we hear about... its all real new to me, at times scary... but scary in a good way. is this freedom from fear?
any of your experiances with this if any will be welcomed.
all good wishes, and give only love..................... xxoo, Zip
