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Blake · 07-20-2006, 01:18 PM

THis may sound a little over simplified, but its what works for me...

Don't use no matter what happens or how you feel.

I know that sounds hard or may even sound jackassish, but it really has helped me. I don't use no matter what happens or how much I want to b/c I know what using even on time will do for me. I can't control myself once I use even once. I will end up strung out again and then I'll have to detox again and the last detox I did was hell on earth and I promised myself if I lived through it, I'd never put myself through it again.

Drugs are an illusion, we believe that they will fix us and make us better, but it all lies. No matter how bad I feel or what horrible **** is going on in my life, if I use it WILL get worse.....that is what keeps me clean, knowing that the drugs just don't work anymore.

I have 17 months clean and it does get easier but from time to time, I still get using thoughts in my head...they just pop in out of nowhere. Realizing that they are just thoughts and that I don't HAVE to act on them has helped me alot. If I use, it is a choice that I make, I can't blame it on the dope anymore which is quite liberating.

Congrats on the 30 days, that's awesome.....stick around and keep on trucking!

07-20-2006, 01:18 PM	#11 (permalink)
Blake I'm an addict. Join Date: Mar 2005 Location: Hyde Park, NY Posts: 1,201	THis may sound a little over simplified, but its what works for me... Don't use no matter what happens or how you feel. I know that sounds hard or may even sound jackassish, but it really has helped me. I don't use no matter what happens or how much I want to b/c I know what using even on time will do for me. I can't control myself once I use even once. I will end up strung out again and then I'll have to detox again and the last detox I did was hell on earth and I promised myself if I lived through it, I'd never put myself through it again. Drugs are an illusion, we believe that they will fix us and make us better, but it all lies. No matter how bad I feel or what horrible ** is going on in my life, if I use it WILL get worse.....that is what keeps me clean, knowing that the drugs just don't work anymore. I have 17 months clean and it does get easier but from time to time, I still get using thoughts in my head...they just pop in out of nowhere. Realizing that they are just thoughts and that I don't HAVE to act on them has helped me alot. If I use, it is a choice that I make, I can't blame it on the dope anymore which is quite liberating. Congrats on the 30 days, that's awesome.....stick around and keep on trucking! __________________ Warning:** I'm a sick person so take any advice I may be spewing with a grain of salt, but it's what has worked for me, so far.