[Nina Kay]

Hi Robyn,
I too, want to Welcome you here. I am so sorry for the devastating loss of your friend, Jess. I certainly agree with what everyone before me has said. You could decide to honor your friend by getting clean & sober with help from a hospital detox that would also help you to sort out all that you're going through and dealing with by use of a good couselor. You would also get some support while going through this instead of going through this all alone. No one needs to try to go through something like this alone. It's too much for anyone to go through alone. Please seek help for yourself. I've always tried to handle things without help until recently, I just got tired of doing that and decided I would just reach out in every direction that I could find for anyone that might be willing to help me through any of my stuff that I was dealing with. I just decided that I am that desperate and determined to feel and be healthy & well in every way possible and I'll do whatever it takes to get to where I need to be. Pride be damned. That was very hard for me to decide, but with the extreme that I wouldn't ask for any help is now the opposite extreme that I'll ask for help wherever anyone is willing to help me to get better. Please think about doing that for yourself, especially now. This is all devastating for you and you will honor your friend by doing this for yourself. You know that your friend would want this for you. Keep coming back here as often as you can because we do care what you are going through.