Never....Congrats on staying clean...I'm sooo proud for you!!! As for your parents, they may be initially angry at you, but hang in there, there aren't many parents who wouldn't walk through fire to help their kids. I don't know about your parents, but if you feel they would kill you, they must care a lot. Give em a chance to help you. Of course, you have to do this for yourself, but they can be there to give you emotional support.