Welcome DG!!
It's great to have you here. There is a great deal of support here at SR..
I know posting that first thread can be a little scary, so good for you for doing it!!
Have you considered going to see a doctor to get some help? Or maybe a detox place? That amount of medication is very dangerous to come down from, especially with the benzo's you are or were taking. They stay in your body longer than other meds do, and can cause seizures. It's really best to have medical help when getting the junk out of your body.
As for keeping it out of your body, the best way I have found ( the only way for me) is by getting help through a program. There are many out there.
There is NA, AA, Smart Recovery, Celebrate Recovery, (and more) programs
out there that are wonderful, that help us stay clean. I also have a drug and alcohol counselor, and she has helped me alot too. There are also great treatment programs out there.
It's tough to get and stay clean alone. SR is a wonderful place, and there is alot of support, but face to face support is very, very important..
Hey, there are alot of forums here on SR.. Check them out if you have time
Prayers
Becky