Good going, girl!
I´m glad you´re back on your meds. I think that one of the reason we don´t want to be on meds is that we simply don´t want to take anything chemical, now that we´m re sober. I have trouble taking simple painkillers and avoid them, even when I have a bad headache. I think it has also something to do with shame, although I´m not sure why.
But anyway, my doc says depression is like diabetes. Don´t worry and keep going.
Love and light,