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Adding to the message above:
He (son) called me awhile ago to tell me he had called the hospital and they have a bed for him so he would be here soon so I could drive him. I was all set with maps on how to get there and even made a pot of strong coffee for him. Then he called back and said "you sound irritated with me so I got a ride". I told him I wasn't irritated, but I guess I was (see what I posted above) and it must have come through in my voice, huh?
Anyway, I said ok, told him good luck and to hang in there and that I loved him, so now it's back out of my hands which is a relief, but I'm feeling the manipulation here....him trying to make me feel like I did something wrong so now he'll "punish" me by getting someone else to take him in. The part that pisses me off is that it's working....guess this is where I need to find an Al-anon meeting and get a dose of reality.
Jesus....he just called me again to ask about how to get there and we cleared up the "I know you're irritated" thing, so I'm not feeling guilty or like I'm a bad mother. This crap sure does a number on all of us, doesn't it?
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