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blueglass · 06-24-2006, 08:36 PM

Thanks for the advice, Best.

I really enjoyed sitting down with him and talking. It was so scary. He was walking me to my car and I very nervously asked him if he wanted to talk to me about something. So we sat in the car for about 30 minutes or so, and hammered everything out. My first instinct was like his, to just walk away from everything. He didn't want to deal with it, and I didn't want to deal with how I was feeling - vulnerable. It's scary to know, without a shadow of a doubt, that I'm open enough to get hurt in all this, and it makes me lash out with no REAL motive or reason. I even did something I usually never do when I know that I'm wrong - I said a sincere "I'm sorry" for upsetting him. Felt good.

My mother's sisters and mother are coming to our house for 5 long days starting this coming Saturday, so if by Tuesday I'm still feeling jumpy, I'm going to call the doctor - don't want to be neurotic with them around!

06-24-2006, 08:36 PM	#3 (permalink)
blueglass Freak, no Leash Join Date: Nov 2005 Location: Ohio Posts: 50	Thanks for the advice, Best. I really enjoyed sitting down with him and talking. It was so scary. He was walking me to my car and I very nervously asked him if he wanted to talk to me about something. So we sat in the car for about 30 minutes or so, and hammered everything out. My first instinct was like his, to just walk away from everything. He didn't want to deal with it, and I didn't want to deal with how I was feeling - vulnerable. It's scary to know, without a shadow of a doubt, that I'm open enough to get hurt in all this, and it makes me lash out with no REAL motive or reason. I even did something I usually never do when I know that I'm wrong - I said a sincere "I'm sorry" for upsetting him. Felt good. My mother's sisters and mother are coming to our house for 5 long days starting this coming Saturday, so if by Tuesday I'm still feeling jumpy, I'm going to call the doctor - don't want to be neurotic with them around!