Thanks for the support
Itīs true, Shutterbug, I havenīt been sleeping too well, so I saw my doctor about that. She adjusted the medication a little. And I did use lavender oil at the spa!
I really needed to hear this feedback. Thanks a lot Meli and Shutterbug. I feel much better - the swim and spa treatment helped tremendously and even though I was sad, I decided to be sad. Itīs my right. I woke up feeling much better and went to a dinner party I had cancelled in my depressive mood. It was great fun, lovely people, stimulating conversation. I have been OK since - Iīm nervous because I am surrounded by packing cases and itīs really something I hate with a passion. It reminds me of all the stupid moves all over the world when I was using. But I need to accept it, the house will be repainted and repaired when I get back in mid-August. I will use the time in that other place to work on my script, go swimming and practice my dance.
It also reminds me when I lived on the streets, slept under bridges and held on to all those plastic bags. I donīt even want to think about that period in my life...
The healing power of water has always been clear to me. I just got back from the swimming-pool and spa and I enjoyed driving my brand new car with great music blasting. Mid-life crisis? Absolutely and enjoying it!
Sometimes forcing myself out of a depressive mood works. I donīt know how, itīs just I repeat to myself I will do it, I will do it, despite everything, and then I do it without thinking too much about it. But itīs really tricky when reason and emotions clash. This is why rational therapy has never worked, but I am willing to try it, Tammie. It has to be a reason why all my therapists (I cannot count them, theyīre so many, lol) have recommended that to me.
I keep telling myself: This is a challenge, accepting life on itīs terms, not on my terms.
Anyway, thanks so much, all of you and wishing you a good day.
Love and light,