| Hate the ups and downs
I was doing so well for the last week. i wasn't feeling as hopeless, the depression was starting to lift a bit. i don't know if it was the new medication or if i was just now on an "up" swing.
but it never lasts! and i hate that so much. it's like you get a taste of how life could be or should be, and then it's snatched away.
the last 3 days have been h*** again. today i can barely concentrate on work, all i want to do is go home and pull the covers over my head and disappear. i cry at nothing and everything, and have no motovation whatsoever. i know that this depression won't last forever (though it sure feels like forever), but I am so tired of the ups and downs. I want off this ride.
I am leaving work early today. What good am I here when all I want to do is cry?
__________________ Jessica  "You can have a perfectly normal life.....
if you accept the fact that your life will never be perfectly normal" You laugh because I am different...I laugh because you are all the same |