(((Jessica)))
I'm very sorry for your loss
I found the 6-month point to be extremely difficult in the grieving process. Shock is wearing off and there's nothing left to hide the cold reality that the loved one is gone forever. There are many reasons to go on, it may not seem like it now, but it will get better. I went on an anti-d for the first time in my life at the 8-month point because I was really afraid of what I was feeling and the fact that I didn't care about anything. Talk to someone, a counselor, a friend, or come here and share. It does help so much to get it out.
hugs,
deedee