Hi,
I´m a bi-Polar person, recently recovered from a very bad episode of blues. At the moment, as so many times, I´m find my abstinance from drinking, drug-taking, gambling and sexual addiction very hard to live through. For me, abstinance can be a very unhappy state of mind, and I have suffered from it in 22 years since I gave up Cocaine by going cold turkey. I still miss my drinking as well - haven´t touched it since 1986 and haven´t gambled since 1992. The urge to forget and seek false nirvana is constantly with me and I need support almost on a daily basis. I find that the withdrawal symtptoms of practising abstinance is mood changes, depression, hopelessness and sometimes despair.
I go to meetings regularily, see my therapist and visit spiritual temples in Paris and London. I´m trying very hard to fill my life with positive things to make up for my false Nirvana. Can anyone relate and send me a positive thought?
Sincerely,
