[liveweyerd]

I have about had it. First there is the Aston manual. Then there are the 3 Drs I have consulted. All say something different. One says I can't get off the xanax. The other gives me a too low dose of valium and the 3d says I have to detox off xanax using xanax. But I have been a mental patient and been guinea pigged on so many different meds over the years that I have learned to pay attention to my own body, feelings and experience. And this I know from how I feel....I am sick, very sick from withdrawals and have had to take some time off work but I do not want to take xanax again even for withdrawals. As soon as we switched to the valium I got my personality back. I have felt well mentally and emotionally and been in pretty good spirits.
Yeah, I know what they say about addicts wanting their own way. I am even beginning to question that definition of myself. Xanax by definition creates dependence. I am very much inclined to go back to Dr I saw last weekend that put me on the too low valium with the Ashton charts and try one more time to go that route on an appropriate dosage. Does the taking of any drug that says do not stop abruptly mean that one is addicted to it? I sure went through the willies when I stopped taking Paxil. I have never heard of anyone being addicted to Paxil. I am not making an exuse to take more xanax. I would like to never take another one. It dulls my personality, my energy and seems to have made me more and more dependent on it.
I would appreciate any input.