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Originally Posted by PaperDolls I think my gf wants to kill me some mornings. She hates having to tell me to get up (5 times). It's pitiful. |
Hi PD,
When I read this, the first thing that went through my mind was my daughter. She also has a very difficult time getting up in the morning.
Like your gf, I used to go through repeated wake-up calls with her. That was before my recovery process began in earnest. It didn't please her too much, but I decided she had to become responsible for getting up (she's now 18 and my 'new approach' started about 2-3 years ago). It became clear that as long as I rescued her from the consequences of being late, she'd have no need to learn to look at why she had this pattern, and take any steps to change it.
As hard as it was to watch her go through the consequences, I realized the loving thing was to let her. To rescue her was actually enabling her to continue a pattern that may follow her through life, and take away the opportunity for her to learn important skills and habits. She's still not perfect, but a whole lot better, and takes far more responsibility for getting up and what she needs to do to do so.
You're clearly doing so much better in so many ways but do you think perhaps you're avoiding looking at why you can't get up in the morning? And that your gf is helping you avoid it by rescuing with repeated wake-ups? What would happen if she did nothing and you were just late for work repeatedly and your job threatened?
There's a good chance the lortab is a main contributor. And a growing dependence may keep you from seeing the connection. And your gf not letting you experience the consequence may be contributing to this dependence.
You're already seeing the signs of addiction -- knowing you shouldn't want more, calling in for a refill, getting the script, then feeling regret that the script was filled so quickly.
You say you take the lortab for energy -- well, cocaine gave me lots of energy too, until the next morning.
Here's what an online drug site says on Lortab you may want to consider.
fondly,
gf
ADVERSE REACTIONS
The most frequently reported adverse reactions are light-headedness, dizziness, sedation, nausea and vomiting. These effects seem to be more prominent in ambulatory than in non-ambulatory patients, and some of these adverse reactions may be alleviated if the patient lies down.
Other adverse reactions include:
Central Nervous System: Drowsiness, mental clouding, lethargy, impairment of mental and physical performance, anxiety, fear, dysphoria, psychic dependence, mood changes. Hydrocodone is habit forming. It is possible to become physically and/or psychologically dependent on the medication. Do not take more than the prescribed amount of medication or take it for longer than is directed by your doctor. Withdrawal effects may occur if Lortab is stopped suddenly after several weeks of continuous use. Your doctor may recommend a gradual reduction in dose.